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I don't need to post this, but I'm going to anyways. It's a reply to the comments on my last entry, and just a reply to life in general.
I know I made a mistake. I know I've hurt a lot of people. But you know what? I'm not going to forget that, I'm going to put that behind me and learn from it and never do it again. We all make mistakes, we all screw up. But I'm trying to become someone better in this process called life, and now I'm trying to make up for my mistakes by being better. I'm being more optimistic, more helpful, more honest. Maybe I'm still going to end up hurting some people, but I'm trying not to, and I sure as hell wouldn't do it intentionally. That's not my goal in life. I'm happy. I'm still lucky, even if I've made all these mistakes and hurt all these people. I know that's not who I really am, and I'm just trying to make up for it, even if it's generally impossible.
To everyone I've hurt, I'm truly sorry. But I can't dwell on it any more. I have to move on before I let this drag me down and never let me up again. I realize my mistakes, I realize the pain, and now I'm taking that realization with me as I learn and grow. I won't ever forget, but I'm not sticking on this one wretched topic for the rest of my life.
To the friends that have stuck by me, thank you. I haven't been the most pleasant character, and I know it's probably been rough. I'm glad that you guys can realize that I've made some huge mistakes, and also realize that I know I've made those mistakes. We can all learn from this and become better people because of it. I'm glad I have friends that can stick by me when I need it most. I'm glad that I have people who know this isn't who I really am and can help me get past this. I'm glad that now I can grow again. Thank you for standing by me, just as I will always stand by you.
Megan, especially, thank you for understanding. I'm glad that I have a sister who I can rely on and who can rely on me. I love you Megan.
I know I made a mistake. I know I've hurt a lot of people. But you know what? I'm not going to forget that, I'm going to put that behind me and learn from it and never do it again. We all make mistakes, we all screw up. But I'm trying to become someone better in this process called life, and now I'm trying to make up for my mistakes by being better. I'm being more optimistic, more helpful, more honest. Maybe I'm still going to end up hurting some people, but I'm trying not to, and I sure as hell wouldn't do it intentionally. That's not my goal in life. I'm happy. I'm still lucky, even if I've made all these mistakes and hurt all these people. I know that's not who I really am, and I'm just trying to make up for it, even if it's generally impossible.
To everyone I've hurt, I'm truly sorry. But I can't dwell on it any more. I have to move on before I let this drag me down and never let me up again. I realize my mistakes, I realize the pain, and now I'm taking that realization with me as I learn and grow. I won't ever forget, but I'm not sticking on this one wretched topic for the rest of my life.
To the friends that have stuck by me, thank you. I haven't been the most pleasant character, and I know it's probably been rough. I'm glad that you guys can realize that I've made some huge mistakes, and also realize that I know I've made those mistakes. We can all learn from this and become better people because of it. I'm glad I have friends that can stick by me when I need it most. I'm glad that I have people who know this isn't who I really am and can help me get past this. I'm glad that now I can grow again. Thank you for standing by me, just as I will always stand by you.
Megan, especially, thank you for understanding. I'm glad that I have a sister who I can rely on and who can rely on me. I love you Megan.