What is wrong with me?
In the past week, I've done pretty much EVERYTHING wrong. I don't understand, I'm usually quite on-top of things, aware of my surroundings and my responsibilities. I've been sick, so I do put some blame on that, but man, I just keep realizing more and more things that I've done incorrectly and I'm losing all faith in myself.
On Tuesday, I signed up for a lower German class than I should have, because I wasn't feeling particularly self-confident. I also completely neglected to pay my rent, which was due on Tuesday, despite withdrawing money on Monday night (I didn't remember about the rent then either). The worst, is I didn't realize that I didn't pay my rent until Friday and I didn't have the self-confidence built up for the C1 German course until Friday, when all the higher level (C1) courses were already full.
I also realized on Friday afternoon that I forgot to pay my internet bill which was due on Thursday. Then last night, I realized that Lana wasn't actually coming in last night, but rather tonight. I thought she was getting in at 11:45 on Saturday, but really it's 11:15 on Sunday. I could have easily checked the text message again, but I didn't.
I've allowed chocolate to melt in my backpack all over my belongings two days in a row this past week. You think I would have learned.
Today, I started to feel a little better. I was at the welcome breakfast in my dorm and talked to a Tutor who said that paying late should not be a problem because I haven't yet been contacted about being late. She said even if I had been contacted, it would only be a 6 Euro fine or so. I hope this is the case and there is no problem tomorrow morning. I spoke for 3 hours or so with several German and international students, and it was just nice to sit around and not worry about things. However we were talking about various universities in Berlin, and someone mentioned that the FHW (School of Economics) started last week and I remembered that it did... WHOOOPS, I didn't go to my class there on Wednesday and it's SUPER important to go to the first class to sign up.
DAMMIT. I hope I didn't fuck up too badly, but if I did, I really was quite sick on Wednesday and spent the entire day at home, so it's not like I had no reason to miss class.
I just can't believe I've been that out of it lately. I feel like a completely different person. Like an idiot.
EDIT: The stupidities just keep rolling in! The course at the School of Economics, which is 3.5 hours long each week, actually started TWO weeks ago. EXPLETIVESSSSSSS. 7 hours missed, and it appears to be kind of a hard class to understand in German since I don't know the economics terms. EXPLETIVESSSSSS. MORE EXPLETIVES. DAMMIT. DAMMIT. DAMMIT. I don't know if I can take the course at ALL now, and I really need to for my major.
On Tuesday, I signed up for a lower German class than I should have, because I wasn't feeling particularly self-confident. I also completely neglected to pay my rent, which was due on Tuesday, despite withdrawing money on Monday night (I didn't remember about the rent then either). The worst, is I didn't realize that I didn't pay my rent until Friday and I didn't have the self-confidence built up for the C1 German course until Friday, when all the higher level (C1) courses were already full.
I also realized on Friday afternoon that I forgot to pay my internet bill which was due on Thursday. Then last night, I realized that Lana wasn't actually coming in last night, but rather tonight. I thought she was getting in at 11:45 on Saturday, but really it's 11:15 on Sunday. I could have easily checked the text message again, but I didn't.
I've allowed chocolate to melt in my backpack all over my belongings two days in a row this past week. You think I would have learned.
Today, I started to feel a little better. I was at the welcome breakfast in my dorm and talked to a Tutor who said that paying late should not be a problem because I haven't yet been contacted about being late. She said even if I had been contacted, it would only be a 6 Euro fine or so. I hope this is the case and there is no problem tomorrow morning. I spoke for 3 hours or so with several German and international students, and it was just nice to sit around and not worry about things. However we were talking about various universities in Berlin, and someone mentioned that the FHW (School of Economics) started last week and I remembered that it did... WHOOOPS, I didn't go to my class there on Wednesday and it's SUPER important to go to the first class to sign up.
DAMMIT. I hope I didn't fuck up too badly, but if I did, I really was quite sick on Wednesday and spent the entire day at home, so it's not like I had no reason to miss class.
I just can't believe I've been that out of it lately. I feel like a completely different person. Like an idiot.
EDIT: The stupidities just keep rolling in! The course at the School of Economics, which is 3.5 hours long each week, actually started TWO weeks ago. EXPLETIVESSSSSSS. 7 hours missed, and it appears to be kind of a hard class to understand in German since I don't know the economics terms. EXPLETIVESSSSSS. MORE EXPLETIVES. DAMMIT. DAMMIT. DAMMIT. I don't know if I can take the course at ALL now, and I really need to for my major.