running in circles, coming up tails.
i'm such a crazy person. i can't believe how much i've been crying.
i should be okay. i have all the people who love me around me everyday, but there's a void.
i should be excited. i have my best friend and tim in new hampshire with me till friday. but i'm so bummed.
i should be happy. being single is so liberating, but i've realized just how much i don't want to be single.
i watched mtv's truelife: i'm jealous...and i realized just how jealous and mistrusting i'd been of andrew the entire time we were together. i felt like i wasted so much of my time wondering where he was when he wasnt with me, that i couldn't enjoy him when he was. i was miserable because of my own insecurities. at least i've figured out my reasons why things didn't work.
i can feel another night of tears in front of me. it's better to get them over with so i can work towards something that makes me smile.
i'll miss you, dan and stine. <3
life moves way too fast, i want to stay home forever.
i should be okay. i have all the people who love me around me everyday, but there's a void.
i should be excited. i have my best friend and tim in new hampshire with me till friday. but i'm so bummed.
i should be happy. being single is so liberating, but i've realized just how much i don't want to be single.
i watched mtv's truelife: i'm jealous...and i realized just how jealous and mistrusting i'd been of andrew the entire time we were together. i felt like i wasted so much of my time wondering where he was when he wasnt with me, that i couldn't enjoy him when he was. i was miserable because of my own insecurities. at least i've figured out my reasons why things didn't work.
i can feel another night of tears in front of me. it's better to get them over with so i can work towards something that makes me smile.
i'll miss you, dan and stine. <3
life moves way too fast, i want to stay home forever.