It's a dreary Monday in Lock Haven
Well I was talking to a good friend of mine and decided it was time for a new update on here. The only good news I really have to report here is that I have an interview this thursday for an internship at lewistown hospital in the community relations department. It would be something that would take up my whole summer and depending on how I do....even a full time job there. I have mixed emotions on this one and then there is the possibility of another one in Philadelphia with the Italian Consulate but we shall see what happens in between now and then.
Another thing to report is I have finally seen the real side of Scott...the kid from Virginia that I cared so much about and unfortunately my mother was right about him from the start. I don't know how she does it and I really wish I had that talent. I guess it comes from experience...who knows? But yes, I can finally say that I have no desire to ever be with him or see him or speak to him and all my questions have been answered and I am glad because now I can truly move on. I have given that boy enough chances and he fucked them all up so its over for good.
I graduate on the 13th of May and that is pretty scary. All my years of being a student will be over which is hard to fathom and my four years at Lock Haven have all slipped through my fingers like sand and even that is hard for me to grasp. There are some moments I would relive again and some that I wouldnt but I guess everything I have gone through has made me the person I am today. It seems like everyone is getting married or having children or is being proposed to or is deciding to live with their boyfriends after college. It seems like everyone has a concrete plan at the moment but me. Then again, I have never really had the concrete plan, its been more of making decisions as I go I suppose, but for some reason or another I am almost panicking about it all and I shouldn't be...I have gone 21 years of living this way and now I just want someone to throw a plan at me and for me to follow it. Odd isn't it?.......well enough with this...I have other things I should probably get done so for now this will be it.
Another thing to report is I have finally seen the real side of Scott...the kid from Virginia that I cared so much about and unfortunately my mother was right about him from the start. I don't know how she does it and I really wish I had that talent. I guess it comes from experience...who knows? But yes, I can finally say that I have no desire to ever be with him or see him or speak to him and all my questions have been answered and I am glad because now I can truly move on. I have given that boy enough chances and he fucked them all up so its over for good.
I graduate on the 13th of May and that is pretty scary. All my years of being a student will be over which is hard to fathom and my four years at Lock Haven have all slipped through my fingers like sand and even that is hard for me to grasp. There are some moments I would relive again and some that I wouldnt but I guess everything I have gone through has made me the person I am today. It seems like everyone is getting married or having children or is being proposed to or is deciding to live with their boyfriends after college. It seems like everyone has a concrete plan at the moment but me. Then again, I have never really had the concrete plan, its been more of making decisions as I go I suppose, but for some reason or another I am almost panicking about it all and I shouldn't be...I have gone 21 years of living this way and now I just want someone to throw a plan at me and for me to follow it. Odd isn't it?.......well enough with this...I have other things I should probably get done so for now this will be it.