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So. I am so thankful for the life I have. And for the things I have and the people I have.
But lately. I'm loosing control emotionally. I sit there. And I try to tell myself how to deal with these emotions. And I think I have control. But I know that whether I do or not, I probably won't have it much longer. I like to think I will and I hope to GOD I will. But I don't know.
I have felt emotional pain before. But never like this. And I don't talk about it.
I used to be okay with emotions. Used to.
I'm afraid of what I can do.
But lately. I'm loosing control emotionally. I sit there. And I try to tell myself how to deal with these emotions. And I think I have control. But I know that whether I do or not, I probably won't have it much longer. I like to think I will and I hope to GOD I will. But I don't know.
I have felt emotional pain before. But never like this. And I don't talk about it.
I used to be okay with emotions. Used to.
I'm afraid of what I can do.