Why?
Life, it happens. You read about things in the news, you watch it on TV. Sometimes it seems that other people can take a hard problem and find a easy way to deal with it. At this time, I really don't know how. I often wonder why people think I need to know everything. I am emotional. I care allot about people even when they hurt me. I don't understand. Maybe I am a gluten for punishment. Part of my life from what I understand is about pass on. And, because of the past I am unable to say goodbye out of respect I feel for that past part of my life. But, I want to be able to say goodbye, I want to tell her she was a wonderful person, I wanted to tell her she helped me to be a more resposible person even thought it was not with her son. But, she is not my mother and he has gone through so much I don't feel he can handle even seeing me right now. So, I will have to keep my distance a pray for understanding. At least I have prayer, even though I wish I would have told her this in person. Or maybe God might give me that chance.