Hello Again
I'm having a hard time following through on this promise to write more. I'm trying to do more writing, to do more things that keep me sane, that motivate myself to be a better person, to be more whole, to break out of this rut that I'm stuck in.
But I'm having a hard time following through.
I sleep too much. I watch too much TV. I read too much (although that at least helps me to keep calm). At least I don't eat too much. In fact, maybe I don't eat enough. I don't seem to have much appetite.
But what am I doing with my life? Nothing at all. Sure I'm taking a few classes, and I like them, but will I get a job editing? Is that likely? Will I ever be good enough? I never feel good enough. I wish I could believe in myself a bit more. Maybe I'd be able to get out of this hole I've dug for myself.
So I need a plan. Have I made a plan already? I think I have. I need a new plan. A better plan. A plan that I'm going to stick to. Not complicated, just doing things. Jusst sitting down to write, just sending out resumes, just believing that I am worthy and that things can change. That I can change things.
Yes.
But I'm having a hard time following through.
I sleep too much. I watch too much TV. I read too much (although that at least helps me to keep calm). At least I don't eat too much. In fact, maybe I don't eat enough. I don't seem to have much appetite.
But what am I doing with my life? Nothing at all. Sure I'm taking a few classes, and I like them, but will I get a job editing? Is that likely? Will I ever be good enough? I never feel good enough. I wish I could believe in myself a bit more. Maybe I'd be able to get out of this hole I've dug for myself.
So I need a plan. Have I made a plan already? I think I have. I need a new plan. A better plan. A plan that I'm going to stick to. Not complicated, just doing things. Jusst sitting down to write, just sending out resumes, just believing that I am worthy and that things can change. That I can change things.
Yes.