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[vainitic]

i cant stand this

i cant stand being in school or being at anybodys house, & feeling like no one likes me.

what the fuck did i do?
how the fuck am i all of a sudden APATHETIC?
i dont understand what the fuck i did wrong.
& Andrea or Jill, its not because you guys said it .. its just cause maybe i realize that i can be sometimes like in school or ART or whatever. but its just cause im havin a hard time. not cause i really dont give a shit about anything.

college shit is up my ass ..
i havent even STARTED any essays or recommendations
i dont get a fucking break.
when the fuck can i get a break??

i cant stand it.
i have NO privacy what so fucking ever in my house,
people give me shit in school,
i cant even eat lunch without gettin shit looks from SOPHOMORES cause theyre jealous/mad that im friends with Joe for SOME godforsaken reason

what the fuck is up everyones ass?

i dont wanna deal with this bullshit anymore.

i wanna just start over somewhere new & not deal with all of it.

& me & Mike ARENT over ok? were not.
this isnt the end of us.
the saga WILL continue.

i swear to Christ im gunna have another breakdown.

i need a good hard drink & someone to scream at.

♥