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The new Vishnu temple in Batu Caves is just nice. I am quite glad with it and can imagine nice chanting times there. It's built on a platform and you have to climb stairs to reach the top. On top is Vishnu in His form as Venkatesvara and by His side is His devotee Padmavathi and in front of Him is Garuda. I like the paintings on the wall. I recognize them as they are from Iskcon and they tell of the many pastimes of Vishnu in His many incarnations. I especially adore the Narasimha one at the back and the one with Vishnu riding on Garuda saving a drowning man. This painting is so powerful, as it reminds me that no one can save us from material life but God. There is this verse from the Srimad Bhagavatham where it goes something like 'Nobody can save one from the ocean of birth and rebirth, not one's wife, sons, family, community, nation and wealth except God'. It is humbling and I try to remind myself to not be so desirous of things. Lately I've also come to give up on homosexuality. I am no longer interested to exert myself to find a man. So much time, money and energy spent for nothing and spoils my emotional state. I am used to being alone and I am quite happy now. I remember Lakshmi Devi saying that one should not desire for a husband made of flesh, bones, semen and so on but desire instead the ultimate husband or Vishnu. And is Vishnu not so good to me? I can't complain. And like He says in the Bhagavad Gita, if my devotion to Him is imperfect, it is okay as I can continue in my next life to reach perfection. If I devote myself to a man, what would I get? The results are insucure and temporary. I can never trust them anyway and I am rather screwed-up I think. I am saving myself much anxiety. There is much to do for Vishnu, I am excited.