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i live in a culture where the default answer to "how are you" is "fine", no matter how un-fine one might be. and to stray from such tradition is treated almost as an affront in all but the closest circles. such expectations have often left me feeling isolated... and perhaps i amplify the isolation by imposing the same social restriction on myself, at least, whenever i can help it.
anyway, whenever people ask me that question now, i answer "life's complicated". it allows me to tell the truth, without burdening my life's woes on unwilling ears.
but since you are reading this, maybe your [eyes] are willing. in which case, here is my reply:
the difference between cancer and a cold is.. absurd. different. vast. but for the second time, an influential person in my existence has cancer, after having been cured a while ago. somehow, i think due to this fact, or perhaps just general emotional scar tissue, the gravity of "cancer" feels no greater than that of a cold. and that's actually a bit scary.
romantically, i have two scoops. one is chocolate, with nuts and marshmallows. the other is entirely imaginary: the most delicious peaches and cream, with a sprinkle of cayenne pepper.
today i achieved internet through various exciting means. perhaps not the best way to unpack and organize my room before my class starts... i will have to exercise restraint.
i bought a glucosamine/chondritin/MSM supplement the size of the former USSR. it is too intimidating to swallow, so i hope to empty the capsule into a food. any suggestions? i'd put it in yogurt, but as i am unsure whether it tastes like shellfish, i'd rather avoid vanilla-shellfish flavored yogurt. oh, and the reason why: i must have strained my knee during the move. over the last year it has been hurting on and off, usually when slightly twisted. (i feel it may have started when i climbed mount fuji.) since yesterday it has been paining me more frequently. thus.
i'm not really done, but there are obligations i must attend to. bye.
anyway, whenever people ask me that question now, i answer "life's complicated". it allows me to tell the truth, without burdening my life's woes on unwilling ears.
but since you are reading this, maybe your [eyes] are willing. in which case, here is my reply:
the difference between cancer and a cold is.. absurd. different. vast. but for the second time, an influential person in my existence has cancer, after having been cured a while ago. somehow, i think due to this fact, or perhaps just general emotional scar tissue, the gravity of "cancer" feels no greater than that of a cold. and that's actually a bit scary.
romantically, i have two scoops. one is chocolate, with nuts and marshmallows. the other is entirely imaginary: the most delicious peaches and cream, with a sprinkle of cayenne pepper.
today i achieved internet through various exciting means. perhaps not the best way to unpack and organize my room before my class starts... i will have to exercise restraint.
i bought a glucosamine/chondritin/MSM supplement the size of the former USSR. it is too intimidating to swallow, so i hope to empty the capsule into a food. any suggestions? i'd put it in yogurt, but as i am unsure whether it tastes like shellfish, i'd rather avoid vanilla-shellfish flavored yogurt. oh, and the reason why: i must have strained my knee during the move. over the last year it has been hurting on and off, usually when slightly twisted. (i feel it may have started when i climbed mount fuji.) since yesterday it has been paining me more frequently. thus.
i'm not really done, but there are obligations i must attend to. bye.