Tick Tock
Do you guys get the feeling as if your working against tiime? As if, if you don't become something better, if you don't advance as a human being, your soul will rot and fester and decay and you'll become everything you hate about humanity? Ever wonder when and how your dynamics will end and loved ones will leave your life? That point where your growth pushes you down a different road than your comrades, the time when consistent intimacy gives way to boredom and when affection becomes routine?
I often feel like life is a constant state of decay, everything needs to be maintained and fed and pushed further or else they face stagnation and death. And sometimes death is really the only option, sometimes parts of you need to die, sometimes dynamics need to be killed. But when? There's this ominous feeling that I'm going to need to step away from this world of mine for awhile, start from scratch somewhere, and that my time is running out. My time is always running out, and I'm always a day away from death.
It's a little maddening.
I often feel like life is a constant state of decay, everything needs to be maintained and fed and pushed further or else they face stagnation and death. And sometimes death is really the only option, sometimes parts of you need to die, sometimes dynamics need to be killed. But when? There's this ominous feeling that I'm going to need to step away from this world of mine for awhile, start from scratch somewhere, and that my time is running out. My time is always running out, and I'm always a day away from death.
It's a little maddening.