i won't get you, out of my mind
don't know where to start, really.
well at my school there's this thing called DeCal. It's Democratic Education at Cal, so students teaching students. FemSex is one of these, in case you hadn't realized this. FemSex, the longest running [14 years what up?!] and most popular DeCal on campus. so anyway, due to some controversy and drama surrounding the Male Sexuality decal 6 years ago, the DeCal board was created. to help the facilitators of classes, to help the university feel at ease, for many reasons. i think they might make rules or something, but it's through them that we get TEN WHOLE FUCKING DOLLARS of free copies at ZeeZee Copy [eyeroll].
at the decal facilitator training/orientation [which i have never attended before because femsex has special training that covers more than they ever could], george alonzo asked me and jamie to speak on the panel in case the new facilitators had questions. so we did, and it turns out that to a large extent, i know more than the actual directors of the decal board. now they know shit that i don't know, since i'm not a genius, but jamie and i were able to answer almost all of the questions they were, and more. so their authority points went down both then and when i learned what they actually do. not much. so anyway, they were telling all of the new facilitators to have readers made, and to do it at ZeeZee Copy.
readers are texts that anyone can make, just a bunch of copies bound together. femsex has had a reader for years, and ZeeZee has charged us like $60 for it and that's a lot of fucking money. it makes our class really inaccessible to a lot of people and i find that bullshit. as if being at berkeley didn't make the program exclusive enough? so we went back to Copy Grafik this semester, since we had worked with them before and they would only charge $30 per reader. AND would bind a volume 1 and volume 2. both volumes, $30. versus ZeeZee's one-volume $60 copies. no fucking competition dude.
when one of the directors at the DeCal board, found out that we're not going to ZeeZee, she was pissed. which i find hilarious because, in case you missed it,
- they never said we had to go to ZeeZee. they only encouraged us to go there, after our classes had already started, no less.
- we never signed anything that said we had to go to ZeeZee
- i don't give a shit if you're trying to negotiate so that they'll charge you 0.4 cents less per copy, because our students are our first concern.
- even if our students weren't our first concern, 30 vs. 60? give me a fucking break. it's called common sense. try it.
- we have a relationship with ken, who is pretty much desperate to work with us. and gave us free Thank You cards last semester
- i mean, when it comes down to it, we've existed a lot longer than you. kiss my ass.
so anyway, i'm annoyed that she's got her own interests in mind when we're actually concerned about our students and sustainability of our program. get a life.
that said, i love my students! they totally rock, although caitlyn and i are definitely going to have to re-emphasize that we want to hear everyone's voices lol.
one thing, though. is that last fall, monet was saying how the facilitators are supposed to be 'ambiguous' about our sexualities. and i'm not very ambiguous. people constantly make assumptions about who i am and what i like, which is whatever, but in this setting it feels different. especially since caitlyn and i walked into the queer womyn at berkeley meeting and one of our students was there. and then there's another student, who, when bringing up queer issues, references or directly poses questions to us. it's not like, bad necessarily, but i don't know how i feel about it. maybe i'll ask caitlyn tomorrow.
the queer womyn at berkeley meeting had a lot of people there and i hope they come back. it really felt like chloe, caitlyn and i took up a lot of the space. but it was cool. caitlyn begged to have my poster from the library lol so i'm giving it to her tomorrow.
recently i've been noticing how i have this tendency to dominate any womyn's and queer spaces i step into. it's really quite sick. i take up so much space and so many people don't get a chance to speak because i'm talking the whole time. i'm working on stepping back. and in my religious studies class, i'm basically silent. i can't help it though! lecture sooooo booorrring!! but section's awesome. =)
i'm hongry. food tiems after this.
foot has not completely healed. =/ hopefully will soon. i'm tired of the boot.
i have been almost keeping up on readings! i'm so proud of myself. but i'm still not used to being back in school. i just want to write all day. preferably naked.
speaking of writing! i need to finish lpfe this weekend. i really have no idea how i'll manage this, but somehow i shall. i don't think i'll be a part of the next exchange... unless the next one is the holiday one!!111 plus, NaNoWriMo and basically i'm insane. >.>
kory and i [and possibly jess??] are watching hedwig and the angry inch this weekend, along with some l word??
oh let's end this with something funny! kory met this guy and they exchanged numbers and talked via text for a while, and suddenly he sent her a picture text of his erect dick next to a comcast cable remote. his caption "this is what i'm packing lol straight comcast remote status." kory shows me and jess this text and we proceed to rofl. it was FANSTASTIC.
love to the flist!