when i'm all alone, i *beep* myself...
many thanks to those who commented/give advice on my previous entries. you've all given me a lot to think about. i called kelly this morning and we talked for a while and i've reached a decision.
i'll apply for both.
[lulz, no jokes about bisexuality, k guyz?]
i was talking to louis about it last night and he made a very good point: i had already made my decision before explaining the choice to him. because when i was talking about being a femsex fac, i was using words like amazing! and inspiring! and intense!. and when i was talking about being a GenEq intern, i was using words like interesting, experience, and money.
it's difficult what i'm about to say without offending some of you, but it's just something i've got to say.
i'm always going to have to choose between what's practical and my passion. it's going to be the same question facing me for the rest of my life. and to be honest, i would love to have both. but sometimes i have to choose. and i refuse to end up in some job that keeps me financially stable but bores the life out of me. i don't want to live by what's practical, by what i "should do". i refuse to settle for second best, just so i can make some extra dollars or look better on paper.
so i'm doing both. shh, don't tell mom. =D
and i just had the fucking weirdest conversation with my dad. he like, apologized for all of his shortcomings and shit... and he was saying how i'm so great and not once did he claim that it was because i "belong" to him. and he encouraged me to do both. >.>
i'll apply for both.
[lulz, no jokes about bisexuality, k guyz?]
i was talking to louis about it last night and he made a very good point: i had already made my decision before explaining the choice to him. because when i was talking about being a femsex fac, i was using words like amazing! and inspiring! and intense!. and when i was talking about being a GenEq intern, i was using words like interesting, experience, and money.
it's difficult what i'm about to say without offending some of you, but it's just something i've got to say.
i'm always going to have to choose between what's practical and my passion. it's going to be the same question facing me for the rest of my life. and to be honest, i would love to have both. but sometimes i have to choose. and i refuse to end up in some job that keeps me financially stable but bores the life out of me. i don't want to live by what's practical, by what i "should do". i refuse to settle for second best, just so i can make some extra dollars or look better on paper.
so i'm doing both. shh, don't tell mom. =D
and i just had the fucking weirdest conversation with my dad. he like, apologized for all of his shortcomings and shit... and he was saying how i'm so great and not once did he claim that it was because i "belong" to him. and he encouraged me to do both. >.>