Another day
Another day has came and went, nothing like the day before it.
It seems my life is a revolving door... Continously rejecting and letting in the same person that I build my world around.
Each day brings new lessons, each lesson brings new scars.
On a constant grasp for the way things used to be.
Perhaps things arnt meant to be that way again.
Perhaps things will be even better.
Perhaps they will end before they begin once again...
I must admit that my guard is up... I won't let myself spiral down that familiar drain of self destruction again.
To many sleepless crying nights, followed by hungerless zombie days.
No, I won't be that person again.
I've grown so much.
I'm so much stronger than I ever expected myself to be, I just never let myself take that role.
I'm confident that I'm on the right path as of my decisions today.
I'm staying in Washington until i can transfer out to California andi have a vehicle. Which will be the beginning of march.
Leaving prematurely would only result in me returning, once again, tail between legs, defeated.
No, no, no.
I can't flee back to California to try and keep helen close.
If were meant to be, then we will withstand this. It's only 3 more months. We've been together for almost 3 years, we should be able to do this.
Plus I'll be able to fly down to see her often enough.
Then we can have two vehicles, our own house, booboo, and both have jobs.
Let us pray.
Goodnight journalface <3
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