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Update!
I am trying to slow down my life! But it's like a fucking hurricane.
I'm only taking 8 credits this semester, because I want to make sure I'm in this seriously if I'm going to spend the money. I'm doing Anthropology (Cultures of Africa), Sociology (Theoretical Inquiry), African Dance and kayaking. I've got to do what I need to do, and that is take my time.
Nigel and I are done - that was a ridiculous relationship. We were so wrong for each other.
Just found out a couple days ago that I need to move out by the end of Sept. Toyed with the idea of just quitting school altogether and moving to Timbuktu since I am totally unattached now, and I've already gotten rid of a ton of my shit. More realistically, thought about moving into Dan's guest room in Madison for a while and working, chilling out... absorbing Dan's uber-smart energy...
I'm feeling a sense of URGENCY and I'm trying to figure it out. I feel like everything is accelerating - technology, the tension in the world, weapons of mass destruction, AHHHHHHHH!!!!!! and I'm finding it hard to sit here in the woods in my cute little house reading books about African history. Zen teachings tell me to be HERE NOW. To do what I'm doing while I'm doing it and not be off in the clouds, or off worrying about when North Korea is going to nuke us, etc. There's too much going on!!! It's no wonder Ben has disconnected himself from the world.
So yeah. Tomorrow I fly out to Montana - get in at 10:35pm, rent a car, stay the night at my aunt Debi's in Billings and then drive out to Bozeman in the morning. Holy shit.
I am trying to slow down my life! But it's like a fucking hurricane.
I'm only taking 8 credits this semester, because I want to make sure I'm in this seriously if I'm going to spend the money. I'm doing Anthropology (Cultures of Africa), Sociology (Theoretical Inquiry), African Dance and kayaking. I've got to do what I need to do, and that is take my time.
Nigel and I are done - that was a ridiculous relationship. We were so wrong for each other.
Just found out a couple days ago that I need to move out by the end of Sept. Toyed with the idea of just quitting school altogether and moving to Timbuktu since I am totally unattached now, and I've already gotten rid of a ton of my shit. More realistically, thought about moving into Dan's guest room in Madison for a while and working, chilling out... absorbing Dan's uber-smart energy...
I'm feeling a sense of URGENCY and I'm trying to figure it out. I feel like everything is accelerating - technology, the tension in the world, weapons of mass destruction, AHHHHHHHH!!!!!! and I'm finding it hard to sit here in the woods in my cute little house reading books about African history. Zen teachings tell me to be HERE NOW. To do what I'm doing while I'm doing it and not be off in the clouds, or off worrying about when North Korea is going to nuke us, etc. There's too much going on!!! It's no wonder Ben has disconnected himself from the world.
So yeah. Tomorrow I fly out to Montana - get in at 10:35pm, rent a car, stay the night at my aunt Debi's in Billings and then drive out to Bozeman in the morning. Holy shit.