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is this all i have ever been, lies? i always jumped into the game two rounds too late, and then i faked it until it looked like i knew what i was doing. thats not adaptation, its all bullshit. is that what i have built myself up on for so many years, bullshit? ive never actually been talented at anything, ive been passable and well rounded, but never great. id give up all my "talents" and "abilities" to be great at something, to have some great hope of a flag to hang on to. so what does that leave me with, my panic attacks and post-traumatic stress disorder? my insecurities and curiosities? oh brave new world ..