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I hate my tendency toward being nocturnal. It's not insomnia, afaik insomnia is trouble sleeping, which I don't have. It's trouble putting and keep that sleep where it needs to be for me to function.
Since I can't afford a doctor for such "trivial" matters (hurry up universal health care! Or maybe when i go to school their plan will cover something, probably not though) especially when the dentist is a more pressing issue (stating to get really bad teeth ahhhhh), I have been asking the internet. Anything that shows tips for changing to a daytime schedule is intended for insomnia, not a nocturnal tendency (I'll try them, but really, I've been trying forever and I just get more energy and artistic inspiration at night i cant even), and everything for "nocturnals" is just lolacceptance talking about how it's natural for some people, and how nocturnal people are necessary to society. Great for some, and a little tolerance/understanding would be nice (I'm not trying to troll you mom! Do you think I liked getting fired for this?), but I have two problems with this:
1.I DON'T WANT TO BE THE FREAKING GRAVEYARD SHIFT WORKER AT THE GROCERY STORE MY WHOLE LIFE. I have no interest or talent for most nighttime jobs. I want to do something I am good at and
2. I need daylight! Seriously, I love sunny days. I am not into gloominess, and while I like the nighttime, it's not as nice, and I think it's more pressing that I have daylight, being seasonally affective and all that.
IDK. Maybe if I do it for long enough I will get used to it and have energy/inspiration in the daytime... but can you really switch it? Daytime people, could you switch to a nighttime schedule if you wanted? Not rhetorical, srsly asking. I have stayed up 24+ hours in attempts to reverse this, and when it came a good time for bed, I just skipped over it AND STAYED UP LONGER. lolwut
Anyway the only thing that saved me today (I have to meet someone at 10:30) is having one alarm screaming in my ear and the other across the room, and then having a ragefest about my body's tendencies on lj so I didn't fall asleep again. Eheh.
ETA: it feels REALLY GOOD to be up in the morning even though i am sleep deprived :c THIS IS SO MUCH NICER, why can't my body cooperate?
I juts. Cry sum moar
Since I can't afford a doctor for such "trivial" matters (hurry up universal health care! Or maybe when i go to school their plan will cover something, probably not though) especially when the dentist is a more pressing issue (stating to get really bad teeth ahhhhh), I have been asking the internet. Anything that shows tips for changing to a daytime schedule is intended for insomnia, not a nocturnal tendency (I'll try them, but really, I've been trying forever and I just get more energy and artistic inspiration at night i cant even), and everything for "nocturnals" is just lolacceptance talking about how it's natural for some people, and how nocturnal people are necessary to society. Great for some, and a little tolerance/understanding would be nice (I'm not trying to troll you mom! Do you think I liked getting fired for this?), but I have two problems with this:
1.I DON'T WANT TO BE THE FREAKING GRAVEYARD SHIFT WORKER AT THE GROCERY STORE MY WHOLE LIFE. I have no interest or talent for most nighttime jobs. I want to do something I am good at and
2. I need daylight! Seriously, I love sunny days. I am not into gloominess, and while I like the nighttime, it's not as nice, and I think it's more pressing that I have daylight, being seasonally affective and all that.
IDK. Maybe if I do it for long enough I will get used to it and have energy/inspiration in the daytime... but can you really switch it? Daytime people, could you switch to a nighttime schedule if you wanted? Not rhetorical, srsly asking. I have stayed up 24+ hours in attempts to reverse this, and when it came a good time for bed, I just skipped over it AND STAYED UP LONGER. lolwut
Anyway the only thing that saved me today (I have to meet someone at 10:30) is having one alarm screaming in my ear and the other across the room, and then having a ragefest about my body's tendencies on lj so I didn't fall asleep again. Eheh.
ETA: it feels REALLY GOOD to be up in the morning even though i am sleep deprived :c THIS IS SO MUCH NICER, why can't my body cooperate?
I juts. Cry sum moar