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[vadancer87]

Hey everybody! I know I haven't written on here in awhile but it's been a bad week for the most part. Things are falling apart quick with me and perry and I feel like i'm the only one who cares and that really starts to get frustrating after awhile. Everytime I try to talk about anything all he'll ever say is I don't know, I don't want to talk about it or he just flat out hangs up the phone. And I hate it when he acts like that because I've fought with my parents so many times about how he's such a nice guy and how i really love him and that i don't care what they think of him it's not going to change anything between us, but when he acts like this (and yes...I hate to admit this...) its like my parents are right about him. and i just don't know what to do anymore. because i really love him but i can't deal with him acting like this anymore. he never keeps his promises to me, he goes and hangs out with other girls all the time, and i don't care about that its just it bothers me when he tells me it was just him and this other girl and then it bothers me even more when i call him and he's on the other line with one of them and he tells me to hang on instead of one of them. and then when he flat out tells me that he doesn't care about what i have to say or what i think or how i feel. i keep hoping he'll change back to the perry i fell in love with but i can't wait much longer...i'm really about ready to give up. because i know he still says that he loves me but he sure doesn't act like it anymore and i'm not going to keep being treated like shit while he goes and figures out what the hell he wants.
on a better note...i hung out with this guy karl from work a couple times this week. we went and played putt-putt one night and then the next night he had a bunch of people from work over at his apartment so i went and hung out with them for a few hours. i know that most people don't usually hang out with the people they work with outside of work but everyone that i work with is so much fun. that's why i love going to work. its such a different environment than the one i have at home. everyone is so care-free and just wants to have fun that no matter how bad of a day i'm having i can't help but smile while i'm at work
well, i'm about to go try and call perry one more time and then i'm off to bed. leave me a note with any advice you have...