Sometimes I really wonder
I wonder if I will ever learn to not wear my heart out on my sleeve. If I will ever learn to be num to folks who mean to hurt me and num to those who don't mean to but yet always do. I mean will I ever learn to not care about all the folks in my life. Be they good or bad? Right now I just feel hurt and a little more alone now then I did 10 or 15 minutes ago and I know some folks that would shrug it off and move on but I am hurt and disappointed and alone. Maybe this will always be my cross to bear as I go through life. I always say and I do mean it when I say it, What goes around comes around. Well it's almost midnight and as I said, I am a little more alone now then I was a while ago and maybe this is just how it always will be for me. Surrounded by wonderful friends and yet always alone.
God I hate self pity
God I hate self pity