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I applied for a job today. At the registrar. Everyone hates the registrar. But it will be a nice job, if I can get it.
Today felt like fall! For real! It was a fall afternoon! Had it been colder, I would have worn my scarf. The weekend that I bring my scarf collection from home to Biola is always a momentus time. It means that fall is really here.
I wanted to have a moment today, drivng back from church, listening to Sigur Ros, with the windows down, with the end-of-summer happening all about me. But when I rolled down the window, it smelled industrial and gross and not all like end-of-summer-Victoria-Avenue, which is what I think I was going for. Perhaps the pond at the park would have afforded a similar sensation.
Today was the ONLY day this week where I kind of skated by in class, a.k.a. not finishing the reading before class. We didn't even get to that reading though, so it was okay, although it was mostly by luck and not my skill.
Holly today said that she missed having those times as a young teenager when you felt everything so acutely, and admired people who are in our position right now. Had I known how it felt, though, to be where I am now, I would not have admired five-years-later me. It probably would have been too sad.
Last night I asked Ben why he chose to be a Christian. He said that it was kind of hard, and he had a lot of doubts, and epistemological uncertainty, but decided that there was no other way to deal with life. There is no other way to LIVE this LIFE without knowing that there is love and that God is love and that Christ brings us to God's love. As for me, I simply don't know what I would be without Christianity, without Christ or faith or love. I don't really want to know; I think I get glimpses every now and then. But I really don't want to know. I know what I am like when I at least have some faith, some love, and let Christ in even just a smidge. That leaves me with two questions: what would I be without it, and what would I be with it fully?
Today felt like fall! For real! It was a fall afternoon! Had it been colder, I would have worn my scarf. The weekend that I bring my scarf collection from home to Biola is always a momentus time. It means that fall is really here.
I wanted to have a moment today, drivng back from church, listening to Sigur Ros, with the windows down, with the end-of-summer happening all about me. But when I rolled down the window, it smelled industrial and gross and not all like end-of-summer-Victoria-Avenue, which is what I think I was going for. Perhaps the pond at the park would have afforded a similar sensation.
Today was the ONLY day this week where I kind of skated by in class, a.k.a. not finishing the reading before class. We didn't even get to that reading though, so it was okay, although it was mostly by luck and not my skill.
Holly today said that she missed having those times as a young teenager when you felt everything so acutely, and admired people who are in our position right now. Had I known how it felt, though, to be where I am now, I would not have admired five-years-later me. It probably would have been too sad.
Last night I asked Ben why he chose to be a Christian. He said that it was kind of hard, and he had a lot of doubts, and epistemological uncertainty, but decided that there was no other way to deal with life. There is no other way to LIVE this LIFE without knowing that there is love and that God is love and that Christ brings us to God's love. As for me, I simply don't know what I would be without Christianity, without Christ or faith or love. I don't really want to know; I think I get glimpses every now and then. But I really don't want to know. I know what I am like when I at least have some faith, some love, and let Christ in even just a smidge. That leaves me with two questions: what would I be without it, and what would I be with it fully?