today should be considered a national holiday
I'm so sorry for my absence. I promise this won't happen again :'[
i need to keep myself occupied at all times. whenever i have time to myself, i get to thinking. i know that doesn't sound awful, or out of the ordinary, but when i think, i tend to question everything, and i don't use the term 'everything' loosely. my mind races and it seems like i'm analyzing everything i'm doing, everything i've done, everything that i might do, large and small. there are incidents where it gets so bad i can't sleep at night. i toss and turn for hours, just thinking, sometimes about something that is absolutely trivial and unimportant. i usually call somone, no matter where i am, and ask them the questions that are plaguing me. once i wanted to know the meaning of life; the very next night i wanted to know why i'd bought the god awful dress for so-and-so's party to benefit what the fuck ever, and why, against my better judgement, i actually put it on and left the house.
i need to keep myself occupied at all times. whenever i have time to myself, i get to thinking. i know that doesn't sound awful, or out of the ordinary, but when i think, i tend to question everything, and i don't use the term 'everything' loosely. my mind races and it seems like i'm analyzing everything i'm doing, everything i've done, everything that i might do, large and small. there are incidents where it gets so bad i can't sleep at night. i toss and turn for hours, just thinking, sometimes about something that is absolutely trivial and unimportant. i usually call somone, no matter where i am, and ask them the questions that are plaguing me. once i wanted to know the meaning of life; the very next night i wanted to know why i'd bought the god awful dress for so-and-so's party to benefit what the fuck ever, and why, against my better judgement, i actually put it on and left the house.