Too much internet can be bad for you, so I try to limit my surfing to about 2 hours. There are exceptions but mostly it's kept to two hours.
And don't say you don't say anything insightful or that feel you're not a valuable contributor to the asucaga comm. For starters, I wouldn't have decided to make your lj my second home if I hadn't liked what you said. And you actually discuss things with me, most discussions frustrate me because they're so... short. Okay, so we might be internet geeks for going on and on about a cartoon but I like that I have someone who not only tolerates my rambling and incessant analyzing, you actually encourage it and do the same.
Besides, if you'll notice, most of the people on the asucaga comm tend to agree with each other, so there's not much to say. Occasionally there'll be a disagreement, but don't feel bad because you thought you backed down or couldn't hack it. I do that often, I just leave in a (silent) huff. The thing with teletha was more an exception, the first part was months ago and I ran from it. It's only now that I spoke up, and she didn't remember if of course, but talking about it made me feel better. But even then I debated for a few hours whether to say anything. I'm not good at long debates either, I just want to keep the peace. And I'm so afraid of offending people.
I've never done anything during the summer, and that makes me very happy. XD You've got the rest of your life to be busy, anyway. Don't worry too much about college or the future, you could change your mind when you get there, a lot of people do. Some of them even find what they want to do from school, they take a class and all of a sudden they realize they want to continue that one. Though it sounds like you have been putting off your schoolwork in favor of the net. I'd say something except I never knew how to study, I still don't. I'm the kind of person who only procrastinates right before the test so I shouldn't talk.
As for the rest of your problems, sounds like you're depressed. People get depressed sometimes though in most cases it doesn't last very long. Yeah, you need to get out of the house. I should know. Wanna know something? I've been depressed for over a year and it got really serious - crying jags, weight loss, loss of interest in anything, no sleep, the works. It was brought on by the mother of all identity crisis. Those shrink jokes I've been making aren't jokes. You should do exercise, cardio-vascular ones, like walking. At the very least you get tired enough to sleep through the night. Start small. That's what I'm supposed to be doing, anyway. Even though I don't particularly want to go out I force myself to do so. Like the way I'm leaving right about now. =)
But you don't actually sound too bad, you're just in a funk and everybody goes through it. It's only when you can't cope anymore that you might want to see somebody. But it's still summer, worry about your grades when you actually have school. Don't worry too much about not having enough community service stuff, things have a way of working out. It will all get fixed.
And you're not the only one who dreams too much. It's not necessarily a bad thing. Maybe it's not productive in the accepted definition of the world, but the world needs dreamers to come up with the things the busier, more productive people get to work on. XD It's when you don't dream anymore that's bad. Trust me on this one.
If you decide to swear off the internet for a while, I'll miss you but I understand. I'm going to be a bit lonely, but I understand. XD I've done it a few times this year myself, but GSD always pulls me back, making me feel like I'm a mollusk with no spine. Or willpower.
Thanks for all the advice and kind words, and thank you for actually taking the time to read my ramble. And apologies for my emotional babble. I guess its just a phase I'll eventually get over. I'm feeling better now because of what you, Erica, and Cynthia have said, and I hope you yourself are feeling much better as well now too.
Here's a really good tip if you're getting less sleep or finding it hard to sleep at night: don't go on the internet before bedtime. Or even after dinner. Usually if you read or chat with people your brain is really busy so it has a hard time winding down when you go to bed so you stay up. After I quit going online before bed I found it easier to fall asleep. Plus you'll end up decreasing your internet time, if you're still concerned you're online too much. =)
Thanks for the tip; it sounds good. If its not rude to ask, I want to know how you're doing? I feel guilty that you're helping me like this and I'm just going oh-woe-is-me.
Oh, and I'd answered the post you made about Dearka/Milly and Cagalli/Athrun from the entry before. And reading back on Mel's Cagalli drabble, I realized I forgot to add something and went back and re-did the comment. Yeah, I know, I'm really obsessive-compulsive. I also added a few more comments afterwards. Sorry about that. I'm not sure if I'll answer back again, but I'd love for you to answer 'cause I want to know your thoughts.
I'm doing better than a few months ago when I was a sobbing mess. But don't feel bad about sharing your woes, it's healthier that way. Not only do you get sympathy, you get a different perspective and the people cheering you up actually like doing so. =)
You might not believe this, but GSD made my depression about 50x worse. It's not the best show to watch when you're sad and lost (sad storylines that are getting more depressing, a vicious fandom, etc.) and too many people have told me to quit and I know they're right but I can't stop and sometimes I hate myself for it.
Mel has a Cagalli drabble? Is it fic? I answered your questions in the other entry and expanded the 'who's got the upper hand' relationship thing to the other couples! See if you agree or disagree.
*hug* Thank you for putting up with me. And I'm glad to hear you're doing better and hope you continue to do so =) And um corny I guess but if you ever feel like paying me back and rambling like I just did just e-mail me ^^ I'd love to talk to you more outside of this lj and outside GSD discussions XD
Yeah the SEED fandom isn't good for anyone's health. I know I should stay away from it too but I can't help myself either.
*stays quiet* I refuse to tell you about Mel's Cagalli drabble =P You'll see in good time what it is when the surprise is finally posted at the asucaga comm XD If you want to look at it that is ^^
And don't say you don't say anything insightful or that feel you're not a valuable contributor to the asucaga comm. For starters, I wouldn't have decided to make your lj my second home if I hadn't liked what you said. And you actually discuss things with me, most discussions frustrate me because they're so... short. Okay, so we might be internet geeks for going on and on about a cartoon but I like that I have someone who not only tolerates my rambling and incessant analyzing, you actually encourage it and do the same.
Besides, if you'll notice, most of the people on the asucaga comm tend to agree with each other, so there's not much to say. Occasionally there'll be a disagreement, but don't feel bad because you thought you backed down or couldn't hack it. I do that often, I just leave in a (silent) huff. The thing with teletha was more an exception, the first part was months ago and I ran from it. It's only now that I spoke up, and she didn't remember if of course, but talking about it made me feel better. But even then I debated for a few hours whether to say anything. I'm not good at long debates either, I just want to keep the peace. And I'm so afraid of offending people.
I've never done anything during the summer, and that makes me very happy. XD You've got the rest of your life to be busy, anyway. Don't worry too much about college or the future, you could change your mind when you get there, a lot of people do. Some of them even find what they want to do from school, they take a class and all of a sudden they realize they want to continue that one. Though it sounds like you have been putting off your schoolwork in favor of the net. I'd say something except I never knew how to study, I still don't. I'm the kind of person who only procrastinates right before the test so I shouldn't talk.
As for the rest of your problems, sounds like you're depressed. People get depressed sometimes though in most cases it doesn't last very long. Yeah, you need to get out of the house. I should know. Wanna know something? I've been depressed for over a year and it got really serious - crying jags, weight loss, loss of interest in anything, no sleep, the works. It was brought on by the mother of all identity crisis. Those shrink jokes I've been making aren't jokes. You should do exercise, cardio-vascular ones, like walking. At the very least you get tired enough to sleep through the night. Start small. That's what I'm supposed to be doing, anyway. Even though I don't particularly want to go out I force myself to do so. Like the way I'm leaving right about now. =)
But you don't actually sound too bad, you're just in a funk and everybody goes through it. It's only when you can't cope anymore that you might want to see somebody. But it's still summer, worry about your grades when you actually have school. Don't worry too much about not having enough community service stuff, things have a way of working out. It will all get fixed.
And you're not the only one who dreams too much. It's not necessarily a bad thing. Maybe it's not productive in the accepted definition of the world, but the world needs dreamers to come up with the things the busier, more productive people get to work on. XD It's when you don't dream anymore that's bad. Trust me on this one.
If you decide to swear off the internet for a while, I'll miss you but I understand. I'm going to be a bit lonely, but I understand. XD I've done it a few times this year myself, but GSD always pulls me back, making me feel like I'm a mollusk with no spine. Or willpower.
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*hug* Thank you!
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Oh, and I'd answered the post you made about Dearka/Milly and Cagalli/Athrun from the entry before. And reading back on Mel's Cagalli drabble, I realized I forgot to add something and went back and re-did the comment. Yeah, I know, I'm really obsessive-compulsive. I also added a few more comments afterwards. Sorry about that. I'm not sure if I'll answer back again, but I'd love for you to answer 'cause I want to know your thoughts.
Thank you very much again.
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You might not believe this, but GSD made my depression about 50x worse. It's not the best show to watch when you're sad and lost (sad storylines that are getting more depressing, a vicious fandom, etc.) and too many people have told me to quit and I know they're right but I can't stop and sometimes I hate myself for it.
Mel has a Cagalli drabble? Is it fic? I answered your questions in the other entry and expanded the 'who's got the upper hand' relationship thing to the other couples! See if you agree or disagree.
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Yeah the SEED fandom isn't good for anyone's health. I know I should stay away from it too but I can't help myself either.
*stays quiet* I refuse to tell you about Mel's Cagalli drabble =P You'll see in good time what it is when the surprise is finally posted at the asucaga comm XD If you want to look at it that is ^^
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