Jesus Christ
I just want to cry. I want to let it all out. But I am tired of sitting on my bathroom floor balling. I want someone fucking there. Someone who doesnt have to say anything, just someone to hold me. Maybe I'm too picky, but I want someone who I know could say something really meaningful to me if I wanted to hear it. Someone who will understand how hard it is for me to cry in front of them, or how much courage it takes me to talk about things these days. I am just really hurting. I'm tired of feeling like I can't trust anyone with my feelings. I'm tired of feeling vunerable, I just want to find someone who knows how important my feelings are. It isnt something you let in one ear and out the other. Nobody knows the depths of my life. This year has fucking changed me so much, and nobody knows a damn thing. Nobody knows me.