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So...LIFE:
is pretty good. things have changed so tremendously. mostly for the better. i'm not sure what exactly has influenced me so much, but i have an idea. getting a job has taught me so much and definitely matured me. i am such a different person emotionally these days. i like it though. i'm much stronger and independent, its not good to feel like you can't make yourself happy. maybe i have just grown out of a stage, i'm not sure. but i do know that i am thankfull. i am so very thankful like i have never been before. i appreciate my family and friends so much more now. i've been really good on not repeating gossip. but in other aspects i have really let myself go and i can't forgive myself for it. i've been dabbling with new things, anything to get me back on track. i'm so scared to step on a scale, i promised myself not to give into that temptation, and i am trying to keep strong. i'm mortafied of thanksgiving. thanksbinging [for making me gain 5 pounds] is how i see it. but i'm going to excersise and eat better and try to make a healthy change in my physical lifestyle for the better. and in other events i think i am finally over him, for real this time, i truely believe that i am finally in the clear. ive been through hell getting over that, and i'm glad that things have been lightening up. but i've heard some things and i am not going to make it a big deal, but i really am scared. i don't know how i'll handle myself, and i guess it'll be the true test as to whether im over it or not.
is pretty good. things have changed so tremendously. mostly for the better. i'm not sure what exactly has influenced me so much, but i have an idea. getting a job has taught me so much and definitely matured me. i am such a different person emotionally these days. i like it though. i'm much stronger and independent, its not good to feel like you can't make yourself happy. maybe i have just grown out of a stage, i'm not sure. but i do know that i am thankfull. i am so very thankful like i have never been before. i appreciate my family and friends so much more now. i've been really good on not repeating gossip. but in other aspects i have really let myself go and i can't forgive myself for it. i've been dabbling with new things, anything to get me back on track. i'm so scared to step on a scale, i promised myself not to give into that temptation, and i am trying to keep strong. i'm mortafied of thanksgiving. thanksbinging [for making me gain 5 pounds] is how i see it. but i'm going to excersise and eat better and try to make a healthy change in my physical lifestyle for the better. and in other events i think i am finally over him, for real this time, i truely believe that i am finally in the clear. ive been through hell getting over that, and i'm glad that things have been lightening up. but i've heard some things and i am not going to make it a big deal, but i really am scared. i don't know how i'll handle myself, and i guess it'll be the true test as to whether im over it or not.