https://youtu.be/lIE29OrLfQU
I am doing a creativity fulfillment exercise which calls for me to write three pages every morning. Normally I wouldn't have time to write before work, but I also normally sleep in two cycles, waking up between 2:00 and 4:00 for at least half an hour. Right now it is 3:30.
I do wish I was better at being able to sleep through the night. My job is physically demanding. Even now as I write my whole body is sore and needs sleep to properly heal before doing it all again in the next few hours.
I wish people took me seriously at my job. I am the only female boat commissioner there. Most of them just ignore me. Some act nice, but still make casually sexist comments. It's pretty obvious most of them think I don't belong there.
This job is a stepping stone. A necessary evil until I can afford my Captain's license, but I miss the atmosphere of my last job. I might go back to the fuel dock this summer. I haven't decided yet. I need the knowledge I am getting as commissioner, and if I stick it out two-three years I can maybe move to another company.
Well, just writing about my job took up almost two pages. Not sure how to fill the last one. Everything I can think to write about next: family, roommate, boyfriend, etc would take more than the remaining page to fully write about.
Maybe I will just go back to sleep now. I've written what I want and this thing is for fun after all. I do have to be up in a few hours to go back out into the freezing cold and be unappreciated for the work I do. I really don't want to end this writing on such a negative thought, but work and how things are there is a huge part of my life. I guess I thought writing about it would make me feel better or think of a new approach/perspective but, it didn't work. Damn! Still a negative end, but I'm out of room.
P.S. I wrote the in a small notebook at 3:30AM. It actually did end up helping my focus on how to improve my current situation. I am going to try and win over who I can and get some friends at work so it isn't as miserable. And I think it is already starting to work.
Also in case anyone reads this and wants to know more about the creativity fulfillment exercise, the subject/title of this entry is a link to the video.
I do wish I was better at being able to sleep through the night. My job is physically demanding. Even now as I write my whole body is sore and needs sleep to properly heal before doing it all again in the next few hours.
I wish people took me seriously at my job. I am the only female boat commissioner there. Most of them just ignore me. Some act nice, but still make casually sexist comments. It's pretty obvious most of them think I don't belong there.
This job is a stepping stone. A necessary evil until I can afford my Captain's license, but I miss the atmosphere of my last job. I might go back to the fuel dock this summer. I haven't decided yet. I need the knowledge I am getting as commissioner, and if I stick it out two-three years I can maybe move to another company.
Well, just writing about my job took up almost two pages. Not sure how to fill the last one. Everything I can think to write about next: family, roommate, boyfriend, etc would take more than the remaining page to fully write about.
Maybe I will just go back to sleep now. I've written what I want and this thing is for fun after all. I do have to be up in a few hours to go back out into the freezing cold and be unappreciated for the work I do. I really don't want to end this writing on such a negative thought, but work and how things are there is a huge part of my life. I guess I thought writing about it would make me feel better or think of a new approach/perspective but, it didn't work. Damn! Still a negative end, but I'm out of room.
P.S. I wrote the in a small notebook at 3:30AM. It actually did end up helping my focus on how to improve my current situation. I am going to try and win over who I can and get some friends at work so it isn't as miserable. And I think it is already starting to work.
Also in case anyone reads this and wants to know more about the creativity fulfillment exercise, the subject/title of this entry is a link to the video.