Lost in the abyss
So i've been going through a debate in my head for the last day and it just might be driving me crazy.
Right now I'm really not sure where I want to be in my life, i'm really not certain that boston is the right place for me right now. Yes I love all my friends and Boston is a fun place to run around but I'm really feeling that it's just not the right place for me. I find myself loathing school more and more each day and I'm now at the point where my interview for the Music Therapy Major is less than two days away and I really just don't care. I don't want to write my essay for it and I really don't care for practicing my audition piece either. The fact that I am not going crazy worrying about the interview tells me that this probibly isnt what I should be doing with my life. If I have no drive now how will I ever have a drive when I've been doing for fifteen years or more?
I don't know what i want to do. My parents really don't want me to go to the U because they feel I will just be trapping myself it the world of momans and never expirience what life could be like outside of those crazy people. I've been thinking that I should just take a year off and go to some random place. Bergie recommended the West Coast since I've never really expirienced it yet. I could never live in Southern California but Northern California, Oregon and Washington do intrigue me. My only fear with that is that even if I transfer to the U from Berklee only my english credits will transfer and so I'd be behind and if I took a year off then I would be even further behind and that scares me.
I'm so lost right now. I don't know what I want to study, where I want to live, hell I don't even if I want to go to this interview on Wednesday so how can decide anything. I feel eternally lost.
Right now I'm really not sure where I want to be in my life, i'm really not certain that boston is the right place for me right now. Yes I love all my friends and Boston is a fun place to run around but I'm really feeling that it's just not the right place for me. I find myself loathing school more and more each day and I'm now at the point where my interview for the Music Therapy Major is less than two days away and I really just don't care. I don't want to write my essay for it and I really don't care for practicing my audition piece either. The fact that I am not going crazy worrying about the interview tells me that this probibly isnt what I should be doing with my life. If I have no drive now how will I ever have a drive when I've been doing for fifteen years or more?
I don't know what i want to do. My parents really don't want me to go to the U because they feel I will just be trapping myself it the world of momans and never expirience what life could be like outside of those crazy people. I've been thinking that I should just take a year off and go to some random place. Bergie recommended the West Coast since I've never really expirienced it yet. I could never live in Southern California but Northern California, Oregon and Washington do intrigue me. My only fear with that is that even if I transfer to the U from Berklee only my english credits will transfer and so I'd be behind and if I took a year off then I would be even further behind and that scares me.
I'm so lost right now. I don't know what I want to study, where I want to live, hell I don't even if I want to go to this interview on Wednesday so how can decide anything. I feel eternally lost.