A Journey Back in time
yesterday i worked on trying to figure my past and whats wrong.so on the way home i decided to make a detour 1 1/2 in the opposite direction i really had no plans till later. i
made a desion to do something i eventally had to do . my desiton children's hospital, oak street vancouver(god its far) when there i filled out a form ,a request for my file information (it should come in 30 days) for the only things i remember form being there was chipping my teeth on the slide , them making me stay up with this other kid watching tv so i was asleep when they did a eta which didnt work i was awake for it . what room i was in and this lil room that i swear was padded they put kids in when they were having lil fits or tentratantrums (i was there alot) so since i was there i decided to go up to the childrens psych program thingy no one was there so i walked around for a bit step into the lil room which wasnt by the way padded ............ i gtg but ill continue this later
it was a small room with red carpet and wood colored walls , and a door with no handle on the inside with a lil window which thy coverd with a peice of paper. i felt trapped in it with no way out like i did back then . back then an anger thinking i chouldnt get out. this time i relized you chould get out omething a child in a rage whuldnt notice the metal you can put your fingernails underthe plate and pull it open m guessing only if it was unlocked . this time i went in had this bad scary feeling stood there for a second walked out of the hospital and started going home. a un acomplished feeling drew me back into the hosptal i had to go back into the rooom so i walked back up to the lil room and sat in there for 10 mins facing that feeling putting one more thng in the past i wish i chould take a pic of me doing that maybe i willl go back do that and maybe later in life in maybe the next couple of years see if i can volunteer there
made a desion to do something i eventally had to do . my desiton children's hospital, oak street vancouver(god its far) when there i filled out a form ,a request for my file information (it should come in 30 days) for the only things i remember form being there was chipping my teeth on the slide , them making me stay up with this other kid watching tv so i was asleep when they did a eta which didnt work i was awake for it . what room i was in and this lil room that i swear was padded they put kids in when they were having lil fits or tentratantrums (i was there alot) so since i was there i decided to go up to the childrens psych program thingy no one was there so i walked around for a bit step into the lil room which wasnt by the way padded ............ i gtg but ill continue this later
it was a small room with red carpet and wood colored walls , and a door with no handle on the inside with a lil window which thy coverd with a peice of paper. i felt trapped in it with no way out like i did back then . back then an anger thinking i chouldnt get out. this time i relized you chould get out omething a child in a rage whuldnt notice the metal you can put your fingernails underthe plate and pull it open m guessing only if it was unlocked . this time i went in had this bad scary feeling stood there for a second walked out of the hospital and started going home. a un acomplished feeling drew me back into the hosptal i had to go back into the rooom so i walked back up to the lil room and sat in there for 10 mins facing that feeling putting one more thng in the past i wish i chould take a pic of me doing that maybe i willl go back do that and maybe later in life in maybe the next couple of years see if i can volunteer there