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ever thought about dissapearing. getting up and leaving without telling anyone. go to a new town or city and start over.
i know this would be fucking over all the people i care for and the ones i love too. but... it's just how i feel.. plus.. i've hurt some of those peple before. i dought they have any faith in me that i won't hur tthem again. would hate to dissapoint them and be nice for once.
nevermind.. that's a subject i don't need to be thinking about. *sigh*
what if i got up and left. ... ...
i wish some people would just wake up. maybe i need to wake up. i actually think i need medication. i feel i'm a cross between manic depressive and bipolar... but.. bipolar would explain it. i refuse to seek to medication though. i've find love before... messed it up :( but i've done it before
i may be single for the rest of my life. i will never be ok with it. but i never see myself with someone again.
*sigh*
maybe i should just cry myself to sleep again...
i know this would be fucking over all the people i care for and the ones i love too. but... it's just how i feel.. plus.. i've hurt some of those peple before. i dought they have any faith in me that i won't hur tthem again. would hate to dissapoint them and be nice for once.
nevermind.. that's a subject i don't need to be thinking about. *sigh*
what if i got up and left. ... ...
i wish some people would just wake up. maybe i need to wake up. i actually think i need medication. i feel i'm a cross between manic depressive and bipolar... but.. bipolar would explain it. i refuse to seek to medication though. i've find love before... messed it up :( but i've done it before
i may be single for the rest of my life. i will never be ok with it. but i never see myself with someone again.
*sigh*
maybe i should just cry myself to sleep again...