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Ive always been reluctant to have an online journal, because I only ever fill it with trauma and shit that bothers me. In a way, I envy people who can just write whenever it suits them, whether theyre feeling good or bad or whatever.
The trend with these journals kind of follows the
"man i had a shitty day but i think nobody around me cares so let me scream about it here"
or the
"holy hell my life is pointless and i talk about what kind of coffee I got at the coffee shop today, and 6 other people comment because (I can only hope)
they actually know in real life and care about what kind of coffee I got. They like the same kind."
Mine is definitely the first kind. I know there are people around me that care that I could be talking to, but I dont really FEEL like talking right now. I ain't really enjoying anything. I'm all bum. I'm pretending like nothings wrong in this entry though. Which is complete and utter stupidity, because if you scrolled down and read the previous entries, you'd know that something is seriously bothering me.
Well. Maybe I can get into a habit thats somewhere between the two.
Maybe I can meet completely random people who like the same coffee I do, and also use this journal as a way for certian friends of mine to check up on from time to time.
Actually, I just had coffee the other night. For the first time ever. I'm 19 years old, and I've had two cups of coffee.
Wow. Sorry to cut my coffee story short, but my night just got a lot better. But I'll still write back here later, whether im feelin good or not. Just for the hell of it. Later
The trend with these journals kind of follows the
"man i had a shitty day but i think nobody around me cares so let me scream about it here"
or the
"holy hell my life is pointless and i talk about what kind of coffee I got at the coffee shop today, and 6 other people comment because (I can only hope)
they actually know in real life and care about what kind of coffee I got. They like the same kind."
Mine is definitely the first kind. I know there are people around me that care that I could be talking to, but I dont really FEEL like talking right now. I ain't really enjoying anything. I'm all bum. I'm pretending like nothings wrong in this entry though. Which is complete and utter stupidity, because if you scrolled down and read the previous entries, you'd know that something is seriously bothering me.
Well. Maybe I can get into a habit thats somewhere between the two.
Maybe I can meet completely random people who like the same coffee I do, and also use this journal as a way for certian friends of mine to check up on from time to time.
Actually, I just had coffee the other night. For the first time ever. I'm 19 years old, and I've had two cups of coffee.
Wow. Sorry to cut my coffee story short, but my night just got a lot better. But I'll still write back here later, whether im feelin good or not. Just for the hell of it. Later