It's been awhile. A lot has happened.
I don't know what to think anymore. This Emily thing has gotten out of hand. Even though I have taken a step back and let things happen... I still find myself be worried and depressed about the whole thing.
She is a very different person now. And it hurts to see that. The Emily I used to know was more relaxed and calm. After we broke up and she got together with Seanna (I am not trying to make her sound like a scapegoat, but I can't help thinking that way sometimes), she started to change. I guess all of this was underlying before, and has now come out in the open. But she is now very volatile (I think that may have subsided a bit though) and makes rash decisions. She has completely abandoned her family and moved in with Seanna. I just need to give this more time to pass. I need to get over Emily. Why is this so hard?
This is mainly spurred by a phonecall I got tonight. It was Emily from a payphone. It turns out that Seanna and Emily misread the bus schedule, and were stranded at Thompson Park Mall at 11pm. They wanted to know if I could come pick them up and drop them off at Costco so they could hitchhike to Vancouver. I guess I may be a little conservative, but I think hitchhiking in general is a bad idea. Especially when you have two girls, 17 and 16, hitchhiking alone in the middle of the night. The fact that Emily has no money right now isn't helping calm my thoughts.
Fuck.
I am being stupid, but i can't stop.
She is a very different person now. And it hurts to see that. The Emily I used to know was more relaxed and calm. After we broke up and she got together with Seanna (I am not trying to make her sound like a scapegoat, but I can't help thinking that way sometimes), she started to change. I guess all of this was underlying before, and has now come out in the open. But she is now very volatile (I think that may have subsided a bit though) and makes rash decisions. She has completely abandoned her family and moved in with Seanna. I just need to give this more time to pass. I need to get over Emily. Why is this so hard?
This is mainly spurred by a phonecall I got tonight. It was Emily from a payphone. It turns out that Seanna and Emily misread the bus schedule, and were stranded at Thompson Park Mall at 11pm. They wanted to know if I could come pick them up and drop them off at Costco so they could hitchhike to Vancouver. I guess I may be a little conservative, but I think hitchhiking in general is a bad idea. Especially when you have two girls, 17 and 16, hitchhiking alone in the middle of the night. The fact that Emily has no money right now isn't helping calm my thoughts.
Fuck.
I am being stupid, but i can't stop.