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Why is it that people go looking for something they know they don't want to find, knowing at the end they'll end up getting hurt...AGAIN...
Well... it's happened to me once again... I guess I'll never learn but this way is better... It's amazing how when you have a serious conversation about a conflict... and it's supposedly resolved... how even moments, days, or weeks go by and it happens again... like if nothing was ever resolved... I think I've kept my end of the deal... but to find what I saw... knowingly the other person had cleared things up and it happened again... let's just say I'm not the happiest person you want next to you right now...
It may seem like I'm making it a bigger deal than what it really is but you know what?? The smallest thing will turn into an even bigger ordeal... It happens like this because the first time it happened, you say, "I'll let it slide this time," and then it happens again... so you shrug it off once again... but then it happens again... the conflict is straighten out... couple of days later... guess what happens..?? Same story all over again....
I seriously don't know why this happens and I don't know what to do anymore... Maybe something didn't register while the serious conversation was held or maybe... It seems like sometimes there is a lack of respect somehow...
Every time I find out... my stomach turns... I get upset and very uneasy... It just makes me pretty god damn INSECURE.... happy?? I said it, it's out... ok fine... call me a hypocrite... because I do the same thing sometimes but I am at least aware of the consequences... and lately I've been getting better @ not doing it.
I really needed this written breather because I know the confrontation will be coming up sooner rather than later and at least this helps me clear my mind and blow some steam off the situation...
I know it's not a big deal to you... but it is to me... =(
...that's all I have to say...
Well... it's happened to me once again... I guess I'll never learn but this way is better... It's amazing how when you have a serious conversation about a conflict... and it's supposedly resolved... how even moments, days, or weeks go by and it happens again... like if nothing was ever resolved... I think I've kept my end of the deal... but to find what I saw... knowingly the other person had cleared things up and it happened again... let's just say I'm not the happiest person you want next to you right now...
It may seem like I'm making it a bigger deal than what it really is but you know what?? The smallest thing will turn into an even bigger ordeal... It happens like this because the first time it happened, you say, "I'll let it slide this time," and then it happens again... so you shrug it off once again... but then it happens again... the conflict is straighten out... couple of days later... guess what happens..?? Same story all over again....
I seriously don't know why this happens and I don't know what to do anymore... Maybe something didn't register while the serious conversation was held or maybe... It seems like sometimes there is a lack of respect somehow...
Every time I find out... my stomach turns... I get upset and very uneasy... It just makes me pretty god damn INSECURE.... happy?? I said it, it's out... ok fine... call me a hypocrite... because I do the same thing sometimes but I am at least aware of the consequences... and lately I've been getting better @ not doing it.
I really needed this written breather because I know the confrontation will be coming up sooner rather than later and at least this helps me clear my mind and blow some steam off the situation...
I know it's not a big deal to you... but it is to me... =(
...that's all I have to say...