...Feeling Overwhelmed...
Its been 4ever and a half since I've been on LJ so lets update!!
I'm uberly stressed... I have so much HW due these next 2 wks its ridiculous!! Like right now I should be working on my research paper but I need a break... which will probably turn into the rest of the night... lol moving on I have 2 powerpoint presentations due, 1 for my education class and the other for my meteorology, I have a test 2moro and lets see.... oh yea! along with that powerpoint for my education class i have a bunch of other shyt due... cuz its supposed to be a teachers portfolio kinda thing...
MOREOVER! for my history class i have 2 papers due b4 the class is over... one is an outline of all his notes in 2000 words for EC which i need and also a 5 page paper on my service learning project.... and thats not counting finals..... AY YA YAY!!
WELL ITS BEEN A RUFF WEEK.... last weekend, exactly a week ago, my grandpa passed away... im ok its just my mom that was doing pretty bad... she would go to his house every morning to make him breakfast but the one day she asked him if he wanted her to go was the day he said no...coincedence??.... so instead of going early every morning as she normally would.... she woke up a little later and went to his house around 9:30... and she found him already passed.... i cant imagine the feeling of having that happen to you but dam.... it was horrible seeing my mom that way... cuz she kept blaming herself for the death because if she would've gone to his house earlier she said maybe it wouldn't have happened...
Atleast its better this way... he was a cancer patient whos cancer was out of hand... it had already spread form his colon to his prostate and then to his bones, kidneys, and lungs... he was suffering too much and would always pray to god to end his suffering... brings me to tears that i couldnt say one more goodbye to him and give him one last hug and kiss before he went... he was like a father to me... he pretty much raised my to help my mom... and now it was my turn these last couple of minths to take care of him... he was already to weak... so i would always be doing errands for him... groceries, paying his bills, taking him to the doctor... the one thing i truly regret now is not spending more time with him... i definately took him for granted the last few months...
All this happend sunday morning and coincedentially.... my mom got to spend his last day with him... she told me she was with him all day saturday and before she left his house was when she asked him if he wanted her to go over early in the morning....
...I MISS HIM SO MUCH... I JUST WISH I COULD'VE SEEN HIM ON SATURDAY... INSTEAD OF COMING HOME STRAIGHT AFTER WORK AND DOING NOTHING... I SHOULD'VE GONE TO HIS HOUSE AS I USUALLY WOULD...
OTHER THAN THAT..... My BFs been in ecuador for 10 days and comes bak 2nite... i cant wait!! its been a dramatic week and i really need to get my mind off of things... unfortunately for not too long cuz i really need to work on this research paper... its due friday and all i have done of the 6-8 pages is my introduction, coverpage and works cited.... lets see how that goes...
I'm uberly stressed... I have so much HW due these next 2 wks its ridiculous!! Like right now I should be working on my research paper but I need a break... which will probably turn into the rest of the night... lol moving on I have 2 powerpoint presentations due, 1 for my education class and the other for my meteorology, I have a test 2moro and lets see.... oh yea! along with that powerpoint for my education class i have a bunch of other shyt due... cuz its supposed to be a teachers portfolio kinda thing...
MOREOVER! for my history class i have 2 papers due b4 the class is over... one is an outline of all his notes in 2000 words for EC which i need and also a 5 page paper on my service learning project.... and thats not counting finals..... AY YA YAY!!
WELL ITS BEEN A RUFF WEEK.... last weekend, exactly a week ago, my grandpa passed away... im ok its just my mom that was doing pretty bad... she would go to his house every morning to make him breakfast but the one day she asked him if he wanted her to go was the day he said no...coincedence??.... so instead of going early every morning as she normally would.... she woke up a little later and went to his house around 9:30... and she found him already passed.... i cant imagine the feeling of having that happen to you but dam.... it was horrible seeing my mom that way... cuz she kept blaming herself for the death because if she would've gone to his house earlier she said maybe it wouldn't have happened...
Atleast its better this way... he was a cancer patient whos cancer was out of hand... it had already spread form his colon to his prostate and then to his bones, kidneys, and lungs... he was suffering too much and would always pray to god to end his suffering... brings me to tears that i couldnt say one more goodbye to him and give him one last hug and kiss before he went... he was like a father to me... he pretty much raised my to help my mom... and now it was my turn these last couple of minths to take care of him... he was already to weak... so i would always be doing errands for him... groceries, paying his bills, taking him to the doctor... the one thing i truly regret now is not spending more time with him... i definately took him for granted the last few months...
All this happend sunday morning and coincedentially.... my mom got to spend his last day with him... she told me she was with him all day saturday and before she left his house was when she asked him if he wanted her to go over early in the morning....
...I MISS HIM SO MUCH... I JUST WISH I COULD'VE SEEN HIM ON SATURDAY... INSTEAD OF COMING HOME STRAIGHT AFTER WORK AND DOING NOTHING... I SHOULD'VE GONE TO HIS HOUSE AS I USUALLY WOULD...
OTHER THAN THAT..... My BFs been in ecuador for 10 days and comes bak 2nite... i cant wait!! its been a dramatic week and i really need to get my mind off of things... unfortunately for not too long cuz i really need to work on this research paper... its due friday and all i have done of the 6-8 pages is my introduction, coverpage and works cited.... lets see how that goes...