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So, Christmas is over, and the extended family has come and gone, lacking sanity as usual. Here's to hoping I'll see 'em all again in a year. Fabulous food was had, and leftovers are available for at least a few more days worth of meals. Gifts for most of the family were as predictable as usual. I came away with a dozen socks, some cash, and a game system. Sister got an iPod. Parents and grandparents, aunts and uncles all got pants, cash, and lottery tickets.
The new year is not a week away, and I'm already tired of it. I am still hopeful it will be the year of change I plan it to be. Many pieces of the plan are already in place, others are working their way to where they need to be. The only worry I have at this point is the apathy for the path chosen and too many dreams that have always been put off indefinitely. What I need to do and what I am doing is one thing, what I want to do is always something entirely different. I suppose thats the problem with being a dreamer, that and never having anyone else know of the dreams you do have. Perhaps I should share some of my dreams, a few people know of some of them, especially those that see me up at IHOP when I am most contemplative.
Perhaps the things I complain about most all stem from my being too guarded with my thoughts. I know I need to open up more, and I try, I really do. I'm not sure how many of you reading this understand how hard I try each time I write in this. Many times it comes out as a jumble, a random rant on some feeling I dont like, a little too depressing at times, and others time its as distant and external from myself, my thoughts, as possible.
Eh. Whatever. Anyway, random question: who is doing what for New Years, I need to know so I can make plans if necessary.
The new year is not a week away, and I'm already tired of it. I am still hopeful it will be the year of change I plan it to be. Many pieces of the plan are already in place, others are working their way to where they need to be. The only worry I have at this point is the apathy for the path chosen and too many dreams that have always been put off indefinitely. What I need to do and what I am doing is one thing, what I want to do is always something entirely different. I suppose thats the problem with being a dreamer, that and never having anyone else know of the dreams you do have. Perhaps I should share some of my dreams, a few people know of some of them, especially those that see me up at IHOP when I am most contemplative.
Perhaps the things I complain about most all stem from my being too guarded with my thoughts. I know I need to open up more, and I try, I really do. I'm not sure how many of you reading this understand how hard I try each time I write in this. Many times it comes out as a jumble, a random rant on some feeling I dont like, a little too depressing at times, and others time its as distant and external from myself, my thoughts, as possible.
Eh. Whatever. Anyway, random question: who is doing what for New Years, I need to know so I can make plans if necessary.