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It has been said that those who do not learn from the past are doomed to repeat it. I'm apparently a very slow learner.
Its almost like different cycles I end up playing through over and over. I came across an attempt I made of keeping a journal from between November 2001 to January 2002. Only a handful of entries. Despite the fact that its only been 3 years from that time, it seems so very long ago. So much has happened in my life since that time, and yet, I'm exactly the same. Same concerns, same types of problems, even though the circumstances as well as the people are different. As I sat there reading, I realized I've been exactly the same for almost as long as I can remember. The only difference is how much experience I've had. The real kick in the ass? All of my predictions about people and life as a whole were proven completely true. You wouldn't believe... well, no, I'm sure its not hard to understand, how bleak that makes everything out to be. However, that just reinforces my belief that there is no reason to look upon anything with any other emotion than the one that you enjoy most.
edit: neato. I was going to title this entry something along the lines of moment of zen or something like that, only to pause and think that I'm pretty sure zen doesn't mean what I wast trying to use it as. I went to look it up and found that its more the practice of such than the peaceful mindset that I thought it meant. So in looking up some of the explanations of the philosophies of buddhism (and not just zen buddhism in particular) I realized they mesh fairly well with my view of things... well, other than the whole religious aspect of it. It would seem I have some reading to do on this subject.
Its almost like different cycles I end up playing through over and over. I came across an attempt I made of keeping a journal from between November 2001 to January 2002. Only a handful of entries. Despite the fact that its only been 3 years from that time, it seems so very long ago. So much has happened in my life since that time, and yet, I'm exactly the same. Same concerns, same types of problems, even though the circumstances as well as the people are different. As I sat there reading, I realized I've been exactly the same for almost as long as I can remember. The only difference is how much experience I've had. The real kick in the ass? All of my predictions about people and life as a whole were proven completely true. You wouldn't believe... well, no, I'm sure its not hard to understand, how bleak that makes everything out to be. However, that just reinforces my belief that there is no reason to look upon anything with any other emotion than the one that you enjoy most.
edit: neato. I was going to title this entry something along the lines of moment of zen or something like that, only to pause and think that I'm pretty sure zen doesn't mean what I wast trying to use it as. I went to look it up and found that its more the practice of such than the peaceful mindset that I thought it meant. So in looking up some of the explanations of the philosophies of buddhism (and not just zen buddhism in particular) I realized they mesh fairly well with my view of things... well, other than the whole religious aspect of it. It would seem I have some reading to do on this subject.