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is it possible to feel dead and alive at the same time?
Part of me just wants to curl up in the corner and just disappear....
Where the other part of me wants to go scream and cry and dance in the street until I fall down.
I think it hit me the second Alan drove away for collage yesterday how truly alone I am. Everybody's got somebody who loves them. I know lots of people love me, but who just....loves me? Who am I important to? I've never been someone's only best friend or the only girl that someone liked/loved, or the only daughter. I've never had anyone stick around in my life because they didn't want to live without me! Sure this is selfish....this is my blog though, so I can write whatever I want.
I have these other feelings though in my head that says SCREW IT! WHO NEEDS EM?
who doesn't want to be loved though? I WANT TO BE IMPORTANT TO SOMEBODY. There are hundreds of people who have told me they love me, but I can only think there have been a few who actually meant it and we are still friends till this day.
I don't really like my job, and the people who work there creep me out.
I want to change, I'm bored of who I am.
I'm done with guys, their mean and smell bad, and they'll leave you for ugly whores.
Right now I'm not really doing anything that I love, so I just feel like I'm wasting my life.
I wanna party!!
I gotta break free!!!!! WHO'S WITH ME?
Part of me just wants to curl up in the corner and just disappear....
Where the other part of me wants to go scream and cry and dance in the street until I fall down.
I think it hit me the second Alan drove away for collage yesterday how truly alone I am. Everybody's got somebody who loves them. I know lots of people love me, but who just....loves me? Who am I important to? I've never been someone's only best friend or the only girl that someone liked/loved, or the only daughter. I've never had anyone stick around in my life because they didn't want to live without me! Sure this is selfish....this is my blog though, so I can write whatever I want.
I have these other feelings though in my head that says SCREW IT! WHO NEEDS EM?
who doesn't want to be loved though? I WANT TO BE IMPORTANT TO SOMEBODY. There are hundreds of people who have told me they love me, but I can only think there have been a few who actually meant it and we are still friends till this day.
I don't really like my job, and the people who work there creep me out.
I want to change, I'm bored of who I am.
I'm done with guys, their mean and smell bad, and they'll leave you for ugly whores.
Right now I'm not really doing anything that I love, so I just feel like I'm wasting my life.
I wanna party!!
I gotta break free!!!!! WHO'S WITH ME?