"In a murderous time, the heart breaks and breaks and lives by breaking"
"I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone, but though ure still with me, I've been alone all along"
Hope came with me to see my mom today.
I know its ridiculous to blame her, but it's not fair; it hurts sooo much. I can't look at her; she's like a vegetable. I just want it to end already.
I haven't been able to listen to one song without crying. Music, specifically singing, has become a passion to me, and I haven't been able to spit the lyrics out of my mouth.
And people think that they know a lot about people, or even their friends?! It scares me knowing how much people hide from their lives, from the world. There is so much I keep bottled up inside myself and everyday I continue to act like nothing is wrong.
I just saw "The Day After Tomorrow", and it only helped me think how much everyone should live for today.
I feel helpless and I feel selfish; I've been trying to mend this broken heart for years now and hide this weakness which has taken over me, but I can't run from it anymore; this is my reality. This wall I've put up around me will drop one day forever. I need life for me to finally begin and I need it to be peaceful. I believe that this can happen once everything that has ever caused me pain will go away, or be fixed.
My heart is a toy, my head is even more delicate; everyone, please... play carefully. I can't live like this anymore.
Hope came with me to see my mom today.
I know its ridiculous to blame her, but it's not fair; it hurts sooo much. I can't look at her; she's like a vegetable. I just want it to end already.
I haven't been able to listen to one song without crying. Music, specifically singing, has become a passion to me, and I haven't been able to spit the lyrics out of my mouth.
And people think that they know a lot about people, or even their friends?! It scares me knowing how much people hide from their lives, from the world. There is so much I keep bottled up inside myself and everyday I continue to act like nothing is wrong.
I just saw "The Day After Tomorrow", and it only helped me think how much everyone should live for today.
I feel helpless and I feel selfish; I've been trying to mend this broken heart for years now and hide this weakness which has taken over me, but I can't run from it anymore; this is my reality. This wall I've put up around me will drop one day forever. I need life for me to finally begin and I need it to be peaceful. I believe that this can happen once everything that has ever caused me pain will go away, or be fixed.
My heart is a toy, my head is even more delicate; everyone, please... play carefully. I can't live like this anymore.