This is what Danas journal had to say about tony :-)!!!!
SCORE!!!!!
Florida was great. i got to spend alot of time with tony. whether he wanted to or not. lol. Nice weather the whole time except the day we went up to visit his family. we walked on the beach a couple of times spent alot of time laying out in the sun and swimming. didnt have to cook one night. tony cooked me dinner one night when amanda and erik went out to eat for her birthday. It was just nice to get to spend alot of time together. got to have some serious talks a couple of times. cant really tell if they made things better or worse. im kind of scared that tony is more worried now. He did give me the greatest compliment in the world. "It makes me proud that you are my girlfriend cause all the old people like staring at you!" LOL!! now do i really want to know that old men enjoy looking at me. i had to laugh though. so hes afraid to fall in love again. and im afraid to fall in love with him. WHAT AM I SUPOSE TO DO???????? i dont want to love him if he isnt going to love me back . how long do i wait??? but do i really want to let him go because of that. i would miss him to much. he is way to much fun sometimes. we have our good weeks and our bad weeks. He is concerned about my ex. and yet i dont know what i can do to prove to him that i am not even thinking about getting back together with him. Why give up the life i am enjoying so much to go back to what i dreaded. I have been able to do alot of the things i wanted to do when i was Dave. and when tony says the name dave it makes me want to cringe. It gets stressful when dave talks to me and wants me to hang out. its ok to talk once in a while small talk on line. but no calling. and i dont need to hang out with him either. there is not a time or place for that. i have decided i am not going to the bars for his birthday. It would probaly be a huge mistake. i have no clue how much shit i would have to deal with not to mention i could never stand being around him when he use to drink!!! plus he likes to hang on people when he drinks and he has no right to be touching me!!!!
im starting to kind of feel like im not good enough for tony. like i cant give him w hat he wants in a relation ship. the rest of the semester we arent going to spend as much time together. we both need to get our asses in gear and pick up the slack from our grades. so i think i am decided what i am doing for tony for his birthday. now i just need to get started on it.!!!!! it will take a while :) Sorry tony im not telling you what it is!!!!! I havent decided when i'll have it ready for you. but its only like 6 weeks away!!!!!!!!!!
Top priorities for the rest of the semester:
Get and stay motivated with school work
Keep a great boyfriend!!!
Stay tan for summer
Get my hair highlighted
Be the best girlfriend i can be!!!
Make tonys birthday something he will never forget!!!
Make all tonys friends jealous that he had a great girlfriend!!
After looking back at pictures of my ex. i have no attraction for him at all!!!!!! NONE!!!!!! and yet i wonder how it was so easy for me to get over him than it is for other people?!?!?! I would much rather be with a guy that has motivation for after college. He wants to have a nice house, a job, money, and beable to travel. My ex wasnt much of a risk taker!!! I think that is what makes me and tony get along. I am willing to be more daring. ****Private things that were said go here but I removed them :-D****I like a guy who appreciates things and enjoys them. not someone who just expects more and doesnt give anything back. THANK YOU TONY!!!! You are my spoiled boyfriend!!! and i enjoy spending time with you more than anyone!
Florida was great. i got to spend alot of time with tony. whether he wanted to or not. lol. Nice weather the whole time except the day we went up to visit his family. we walked on the beach a couple of times spent alot of time laying out in the sun and swimming. didnt have to cook one night. tony cooked me dinner one night when amanda and erik went out to eat for her birthday. It was just nice to get to spend alot of time together. got to have some serious talks a couple of times. cant really tell if they made things better or worse. im kind of scared that tony is more worried now. He did give me the greatest compliment in the world. "It makes me proud that you are my girlfriend cause all the old people like staring at you!" LOL!! now do i really want to know that old men enjoy looking at me. i had to laugh though. so hes afraid to fall in love again. and im afraid to fall in love with him. WHAT AM I SUPOSE TO DO???????? i dont want to love him if he isnt going to love me back . how long do i wait??? but do i really want to let him go because of that. i would miss him to much. he is way to much fun sometimes. we have our good weeks and our bad weeks. He is concerned about my ex. and yet i dont know what i can do to prove to him that i am not even thinking about getting back together with him. Why give up the life i am enjoying so much to go back to what i dreaded. I have been able to do alot of the things i wanted to do when i was Dave. and when tony says the name dave it makes me want to cringe. It gets stressful when dave talks to me and wants me to hang out. its ok to talk once in a while small talk on line. but no calling. and i dont need to hang out with him either. there is not a time or place for that. i have decided i am not going to the bars for his birthday. It would probaly be a huge mistake. i have no clue how much shit i would have to deal with not to mention i could never stand being around him when he use to drink!!! plus he likes to hang on people when he drinks and he has no right to be touching me!!!!
im starting to kind of feel like im not good enough for tony. like i cant give him w hat he wants in a relation ship. the rest of the semester we arent going to spend as much time together. we both need to get our asses in gear and pick up the slack from our grades. so i think i am decided what i am doing for tony for his birthday. now i just need to get started on it.!!!!! it will take a while :) Sorry tony im not telling you what it is!!!!! I havent decided when i'll have it ready for you. but its only like 6 weeks away!!!!!!!!!!
Top priorities for the rest of the semester:
Get and stay motivated with school work
Keep a great boyfriend!!!
Stay tan for summer
Get my hair highlighted
Be the best girlfriend i can be!!!
Make tonys birthday something he will never forget!!!
Make all tonys friends jealous that he had a great girlfriend!!
After looking back at pictures of my ex. i have no attraction for him at all!!!!!! NONE!!!!!! and yet i wonder how it was so easy for me to get over him than it is for other people?!?!?! I would much rather be with a guy that has motivation for after college. He wants to have a nice house, a job, money, and beable to travel. My ex wasnt much of a risk taker!!! I think that is what makes me and tony get along. I am willing to be more daring. ****Private things that were said go here but I removed them :-D****I like a guy who appreciates things and enjoys them. not someone who just expects more and doesnt give anything back. THANK YOU TONY!!!! You are my spoiled boyfriend!!! and i enjoy spending time with you more than anyone!