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I feel as if Im in my mind. The thoughts are driving me insane. Everything just keeps happening. I dont know what happened. Things, my mood, everything is just changing so fast, and Ive lost control of it. One minute Im content the next I hate myself.
Today though, today was different. I was happy. For the first time in a truely long long time I was happy. I dont know why but I was. Maybe it was from last night but I was happy. I just had so much fn last night. I dont think I have had so much fun with a friend like that in a while. I needed a simple night in. And the funny thing is that simple night in really wasnt needed with a girl. I dont know why maybe it was Pat but something about last night felt right. Something about last night just put a smile on my face.
I mean he came over at 7:30 and from the time he got there to the time he left i didnt stop smiling once. We watched Hitch (Will Smith Movie) and he gave me a foot Message (sp?), then I sat on the floor infront of him and he messaged my neck, my back, my shoulders, and he was playing with my hair, and wow. I dont normally like people playing with my hair but it was fun. After the movie we sat in the dark on the floor. Our feet in opposite directions so our heads where together. His head propped up on my shoulder and vis-versa. It was comfortable. And we just talked. About everything. Everyone. I opened up so much. And I got a lot out. He talked about this girl he had liked a while ago and I got to talk about Billy.
We ended up moving after my mom started yelling at me to turn some lights on though. So we went and sat on my couch and again we just layed there and talked. It was great we never ran out of things to say, and he knows exactly how I feel. I told him everything. He finally got kicked out around 11 so by 11:30 he was gone. But I walked him to his car and we stood out there and he did this thing with his keys (thats explained in the movie that if a woman is at her door and she stops to play with her keys then shes looking for a kiss) well he decided to joke with me and started to paly with his keys (since I couldnt cuz I didnt hav emy keys) It was funny. Then we started looking at the stars, and then my mom turned on the proch light (which indicates I want him gone NOW) so I gave him a hug and he went home.
But I dont know. Last night was fun. We had plans to hang out again tonight but i cancelled cuz we couldnt think of anything to do and I was exhausted thanks to his staying late lol. But I had a good day in school, and when I came home things werent all that bad. And then the highlight of my night was at 7:30 a had a voicemail on my phone. And it was Will. He left me a message telling me to call him and so I did and talking to him just made my night. I so effin miss that kid! But hes in Hudson now. It was funny though I was actually in my room right before he called looking at all my prom pics and they were all him and Tony. Then Will and I got to talk. He put a smile on my face. I love that kid so much, hes such a sweetheart when he wants to be and he was so good to Kat. Hes always good to the girls lol. But anyway so that mad my night then I came online and Jason was going to fix a pic of Tony and I cuz I want to change the myspace pic I have and the only good one I have is of Tony and I and I just cant stand to look at the picture cuz even now I still want to cry. Will brought Tony up too on the phone. He was partly calling to see what Tony and I had done tonight. Apparently he heard Tony and i had hung out tonight. *Tear* Summer 20005 The Greatest Summer Of Them All!
Omg and Ironically enough Tony just signed online! My night just keeps getting better. If you will excuss me now Im goin to stop typing and stop my venting. Im too tired to care now. It just hurts.
Ive typed too much.
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*goodnight*
Today though, today was different. I was happy. For the first time in a truely long long time I was happy. I dont know why but I was. Maybe it was from last night but I was happy. I just had so much fn last night. I dont think I have had so much fun with a friend like that in a while. I needed a simple night in. And the funny thing is that simple night in really wasnt needed with a girl. I dont know why maybe it was Pat but something about last night felt right. Something about last night just put a smile on my face.
I mean he came over at 7:30 and from the time he got there to the time he left i didnt stop smiling once. We watched Hitch (Will Smith Movie) and he gave me a foot Message (sp?), then I sat on the floor infront of him and he messaged my neck, my back, my shoulders, and he was playing with my hair, and wow. I dont normally like people playing with my hair but it was fun. After the movie we sat in the dark on the floor. Our feet in opposite directions so our heads where together. His head propped up on my shoulder and vis-versa. It was comfortable. And we just talked. About everything. Everyone. I opened up so much. And I got a lot out. He talked about this girl he had liked a while ago and I got to talk about Billy.
We ended up moving after my mom started yelling at me to turn some lights on though. So we went and sat on my couch and again we just layed there and talked. It was great we never ran out of things to say, and he knows exactly how I feel. I told him everything. He finally got kicked out around 11 so by 11:30 he was gone. But I walked him to his car and we stood out there and he did this thing with his keys (thats explained in the movie that if a woman is at her door and she stops to play with her keys then shes looking for a kiss) well he decided to joke with me and started to paly with his keys (since I couldnt cuz I didnt hav emy keys) It was funny. Then we started looking at the stars, and then my mom turned on the proch light (which indicates I want him gone NOW) so I gave him a hug and he went home.
But I dont know. Last night was fun. We had plans to hang out again tonight but i cancelled cuz we couldnt think of anything to do and I was exhausted thanks to his staying late lol. But I had a good day in school, and when I came home things werent all that bad. And then the highlight of my night was at 7:30 a had a voicemail on my phone. And it was Will. He left me a message telling me to call him and so I did and talking to him just made my night. I so effin miss that kid! But hes in Hudson now. It was funny though I was actually in my room right before he called looking at all my prom pics and they were all him and Tony. Then Will and I got to talk. He put a smile on my face. I love that kid so much, hes such a sweetheart when he wants to be and he was so good to Kat. Hes always good to the girls lol. But anyway so that mad my night then I came online and Jason was going to fix a pic of Tony and I cuz I want to change the myspace pic I have and the only good one I have is of Tony and I and I just cant stand to look at the picture cuz even now I still want to cry. Will brought Tony up too on the phone. He was partly calling to see what Tony and I had done tonight. Apparently he heard Tony and i had hung out tonight. *Tear* Summer 20005 The Greatest Summer Of Them All!
Omg and Ironically enough Tony just signed online! My night just keeps getting better. If you will excuss me now Im goin to stop typing and stop my venting. Im too tired to care now. It just hurts.
Ive typed too much.
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*goodnight*