Thoughts....Feelings....Questions....Lies

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I realized today that I really must be a horrible friend. I mean to lose a friend today made me think. Am I doing something worng? I mean I must be. It just seems like Im losing everyone. Like I dont see anyone anymore. I leave all day and come home to what? Nothing! I call people and no ones home. No one calls me. Do people care anymore? Do I matter? IDK I guess I will find out. I checked my messages today and I had one. It was from Sara M. It was the first message I have gotten since Monday. And Mondays message was reminding me that I preordered the Harry Potter book and I have until the 19th to pick it up. But IDk after talking to him it just seemed like I was useless and easy to drop. I feel like at any moment the people I call my friends could just drop me and replace me. Plain and simple. Just like it says in myspace.... *Plain and Simple*
Am I being stupid for feeling like Im replacable???
Am I being stupid for feeling like Im forgettable??
Am I being stupid for feeling like Im no one???????

Im not asking for a lot am I???????????????????????
I care greatly for my friends and I know that they have things to do and people to see and i enjoyed my girls night in with Cassie and Beth the other day. But thats not what Im talking about.
I feel like if I did something to piss you off just tell me.... i mean he did! And in the end he told me to fuck off. What did I do wrong???

IDK you go read the conversation and then tell me what you think!
Am I a bad friend????????????????????????????????????????????????
Am I worth it to you?????????????????????????????????????????????
Am I that girl that you can just forget about that easily????????