Ack

[uwannaxeroxme]

So I started back to work on Tuesday- it went well- just the same stupid bullshit as before I left- I seriously have a problem understanding why grown women can't get along? It's like they think this is still fucking high school and I'm tired of this shit. My grandma died on Wednesday so I'm leaving tomorrow to head toward Mississippi. I have a lot of mixed emotions/feelings about this- she was basically the only grandmother I ever had- but when my grandpa died in 1998 she moved back to MS and later she got remarried- and after that she just quit contacting me & my mom. It's really screwy- as is my entire family! Levi and I are fighting terribly- I'm seriously not so sure if we will be able to stay married if this keeps up- it is horrible. I hate it, I'm not sure what it is but I can't stand it. He is just an asshole sometimes, and today it all started b/c he was mean to Cole & me and I stood up against it. I know he's an ass, but I love him more than anything and I can't imagine our lives with out him. He used to be so sweet and loving, well when we were engaged and stuff- maybe b/c we never saw each other?!?! I can't help but wonder if he went back in the military if we would do better- he'd hardly ever see me? So this week has officially sucked ass- I missed Jaden all week, my grandma died and my husband and I are not doing well together. Wish me luck LOL

Upside- Cole started t-ball practice, he had 2 soccer games (he is getting better!) and a soccer practice, and we had an open house at his school that went fairly well- I just hate his stupid ass teacher. We bought him a new computer game at the book fair and I can't get his freaking computer to work- Blech.

I need to go pack- my mom, me & Jaden are going to MS, and Jody, Levi & Cole are staying here. I'll be back in a week or so. Byeeeeeeeeeee