It kills sometimes to hope.

Mar 30, 2009 14:41


Today, I feel there is no point in waiting for a change between 2 people. Lets say 1 says yes and the other says no now. And then it only seems natural for the Yes person to think that time will change the No person to a yes, right? Its really easier to hope for things than to feel rejected.

So the determine Yes person goes on to wait patiently, hoping time can do its thing. Noting that.. while waiting all this long.... it isnt easy to stay positive on it for long and always. And you are still a Yes Person.. because you have not given up knowing that its right, you feel its right.

After a long period of time, lets say 5 months. Nothing happens, the process is stagnant,. Its only normal and about time you start to feel doubtful and perhaps lost on where all these are heading. Do you still wait for a change in the other person or do you change your answer. When u are not sure on whether to change, you always choose to stay. But at some point, you eventually reach the latter, you change your answer.

Beat yourself every right facts and feels in you and say that they are all completely wrong. So now you have become an unwilling No person who still feel thats being a Yes person is right. You fight it even more and you really become a No person with a tad of hatred towards any Yes person signs.

This means You are sick and tired of it. And I dont believe in waiting anymore. its been a total waste of time and power. No matter how you stretch your mentally up, down, left and right.. to all sorts of degrees and lenghs. I think I had enough. Im calling it off.

With all that you have went through, the No person have never been even close on being a Yes. - Read that again. Thats what you got for taking the easier way out in the beginning. A long struggle which consist of your own mind games and almost losing yourself in it.

Aftermath is you work it out and up and ... ... i'm still figuring what needs to be disregarded and avoided. The thing is... this time you understand no one changes no matter how much you want them to and how much you believe they can, they just dont do it. No matter what you do..even if u force it on them, you lose because it has become imperfect, wrong and ugly. Now, do you understand? Good, good for you. It kills sometimes to hope.  

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