fact of the matter is
I hate my life I really do. i jsut dont know anymore. im tired of being sad. i cant belive i was so replaceable. becky was a better ex than my current ex. she didnt dump me for someone else. she didnt waste a year and a half of my life. i want my fuckin time back. the worst is the feeling of being let down. and i hate that she ruined my perception of her. i hate the feeling of worthless ness. i gave her so much of myslef. i need to stop doing that with people. because people are fucking selfish petty peices of shit. not a worth a damn. i learned my lesson the hard way as always. I dotn think anythign will ever work out for me. i'm not angry enough yet but i'm gettingg there. im tired of hurting myself. i'm tired of being hurt. i am made of rage and hate.