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so basically i keep writing and posting how i am miraculously am jus gona change my life, btu changing my life isnt the problem. what i am gona do and need to do for awhile now is to recognize the mistakes n my life and not repeat them. and jus complete start ot finish anything i have wanted to do my senior year.
now i am focusing on graduating which is said because i should've focused on that my freshmnan year of HS.
w/ my gma dying I am concerned w/ that but havent really expressed it like i should so my focus is on that.
my focus is on things that are about me and my future and that includes the people in it. although friends mean alot to me actaully socializing is gonabe side tracked as i go thru school and progress my grades to what they should be
you know i've always thought that if i didnt go directly to UFL or another one of my top choice universities that i would be a complete failure and that in my familys eyes but im not. sometimes in life u jus hafta stick around and float in a community college, close to family and build a huge foundation for ur future b4 u cna be thrown somewhere w/ thousands of strangers. and besides staying home is a comfort level even though i can transition extremely well in most cases
besides the whole school thing, family. w/o the fam, wtf do u have? nothing but maybe religion? yeah ive had a lota good times during break but the most memorable was on XMAS w/ my whole family snuggled close to one another chitchatting about life, jokes, etc inside the house as it was raining and freezing outside. thats one thing i know i'll always have family no matter what screw ups in life someone is always there to catch me before i fall.
i've realized alot during break. and i have really discovered myself and whats impt in life and to me. im ready for the cruel world each day as i comes and hopefully everyone cna stay by my side and helping me accomplish my first big task, GRADUATION.
like james dean said, "dream as if you'll live forever...live as if you'll die today." thats what i'm going by
sorry if this is too much, but wtf i gota do something good w/ my life!
now i am focusing on graduating which is said because i should've focused on that my freshmnan year of HS.
w/ my gma dying I am concerned w/ that but havent really expressed it like i should so my focus is on that.
my focus is on things that are about me and my future and that includes the people in it. although friends mean alot to me actaully socializing is gonabe side tracked as i go thru school and progress my grades to what they should be
you know i've always thought that if i didnt go directly to UFL or another one of my top choice universities that i would be a complete failure and that in my familys eyes but im not. sometimes in life u jus hafta stick around and float in a community college, close to family and build a huge foundation for ur future b4 u cna be thrown somewhere w/ thousands of strangers. and besides staying home is a comfort level even though i can transition extremely well in most cases
besides the whole school thing, family. w/o the fam, wtf do u have? nothing but maybe religion? yeah ive had a lota good times during break but the most memorable was on XMAS w/ my whole family snuggled close to one another chitchatting about life, jokes, etc inside the house as it was raining and freezing outside. thats one thing i know i'll always have family no matter what screw ups in life someone is always there to catch me before i fall.
i've realized alot during break. and i have really discovered myself and whats impt in life and to me. im ready for the cruel world each day as i comes and hopefully everyone cna stay by my side and helping me accomplish my first big task, GRADUATION.
like james dean said, "dream as if you'll live forever...live as if you'll die today." thats what i'm going by
sorry if this is too much, but wtf i gota do something good w/ my life!