Still in a Funk.....
Not quite sure what's wrong, just haven't felt balanced and stable lately.
I have been drinking more than normal lately, but I just really want to disappear. That is the main feeling I can pinpoint, I just want to fade into the darkness and disappear from the world around me.
I haven't been doing yoga for months, every once in a while I'll do a pose or two, but not an actually workout. I haven't meditated in even longer, sometimes I feel my world spinning out of control. I think it may have something to do with my up coming birthday, and that fact that I no longer make enough money to fully support myself. I am very dependant on Lon and that pisses me off too, I hate have to depend on him for food, and I can't pay for all of the bills which put extra tension on us. Just sucks.
I have been drinking more than normal lately, but I just really want to disappear. That is the main feeling I can pinpoint, I just want to fade into the darkness and disappear from the world around me.
I haven't been doing yoga for months, every once in a while I'll do a pose or two, but not an actually workout. I haven't meditated in even longer, sometimes I feel my world spinning out of control. I think it may have something to do with my up coming birthday, and that fact that I no longer make enough money to fully support myself. I am very dependant on Lon and that pisses me off too, I hate have to depend on him for food, and I can't pay for all of the bills which put extra tension on us. Just sucks.