Depressed
I hate writing about when I'm down, I hate giving people that window, and allowing them to know that I'm not always cheery, though people in person probably know a very different me. I'm just sick of living, sick of everything. It's the same day on repeat, nothing every changes, people are picks, rude, demanding, judgemental, hateful, and bitter. Every thing I just describled could also be described as me over the last few weeks.
I've simply lost sight of what the point of life is.
To everyone out there who claims, "I just don't know why they killed themselves" YOU'RE ALL IDIOTS, STUPID SHEEP FOLLOWING THE LEADER.
Okay that was a bit bitter, but seriously I get tired of trying to fall asleep everynight, worrying about the things I said during the day, the people I may have offended. So I smoke pot, and when I don't have pot I drink, and then I have the damned self-richeous people talking about how great they are because they don't eat meat or animal products, but will make an exception for a cheese pizza, or some milk Chocolate, no offence gradually_awake, totally not talking about you. But seriously, I'm not even pissed about that, eat whatever you want, but don't try to make me feel bad when you can not even stick to your own standards, or because I want to smoke some fucking pot.
Sometimes I really wish I knew if Reincarnation exsisted or the whole you kill yourself you go to hell thing, because right now those are the major desiding factors for me.
I've simply lost sight of what the point of life is.
To everyone out there who claims, "I just don't know why they killed themselves" YOU'RE ALL IDIOTS, STUPID SHEEP FOLLOWING THE LEADER.
Okay that was a bit bitter, but seriously I get tired of trying to fall asleep everynight, worrying about the things I said during the day, the people I may have offended. So I smoke pot, and when I don't have pot I drink, and then I have the damned self-richeous people talking about how great they are because they don't eat meat or animal products, but will make an exception for a cheese pizza, or some milk Chocolate, no offence gradually_awake, totally not talking about you. But seriously, I'm not even pissed about that, eat whatever you want, but don't try to make me feel bad when you can not even stick to your own standards, or because I want to smoke some fucking pot.
Sometimes I really wish I knew if Reincarnation exsisted or the whole you kill yourself you go to hell thing, because right now those are the major desiding factors for me.