Salvia
What can I say, sometimes I like the stuff, sometimes it freaks the living shit out of me.
For those of you who do not know, Salvia is a natural and legal drug which can have hallucinatory effects. I've done it a few times over the past few days, and 80% of my trips have been bad. They range from thinking the world is going to end, and that I am a small small part of something so much larger, to being connected to everything and everyone, hearing the vibration of the universe, to thinking the room was going to be crushed, and I can't remember why.
I really want to continue with this drug, it's a meditative drug and when I was all alone, focusing on my breath and a door handle, I saw the room rise above me, I was in a huge temple and I could hear the vibration of the world, the door handle turned into a sitting buddha, and I was happy.
So I come down from it, the high only last a max of 5 minutes, and I decided I want to go back. I take a big hit and, well I don't remember much, but it freaked me the fuck out. I can't explain it, I can't put it into words, but I basically felt like I was about to be crushed, the room was caving in around me, and I know this sounds stupid but it was like a giant nose was going to crush me and the room. Lon said I got up and started yelling, it's different this time, the room, I'm not going to come back. Then I was back in the room, but I was freaked. I'm feeling better now, but damn that stuff is powerful if you do to much. I think that may have been what happened, it's different than pot where you built a tolerance. With this stuff the more you smoke the deeper and harder you go into the trance. The few bad trips on it I've had have left me with a feeling of there is a reality above this reality, maybe outside of this time, and the trip back to my body is what is so difficult to make, like I don't want to go back, but I have no choice and I am being pulled back, but it's more than that, there is this feeling of being small and insignificate, like an ant about to be squished. I just can't put it into words, just plain freaky, but intriguing at the same time.
I'm going to try one more time, little less this time and completely by myself.
For those of you who do not know, Salvia is a natural and legal drug which can have hallucinatory effects. I've done it a few times over the past few days, and 80% of my trips have been bad. They range from thinking the world is going to end, and that I am a small small part of something so much larger, to being connected to everything and everyone, hearing the vibration of the universe, to thinking the room was going to be crushed, and I can't remember why.
I really want to continue with this drug, it's a meditative drug and when I was all alone, focusing on my breath and a door handle, I saw the room rise above me, I was in a huge temple and I could hear the vibration of the world, the door handle turned into a sitting buddha, and I was happy.
So I come down from it, the high only last a max of 5 minutes, and I decided I want to go back. I take a big hit and, well I don't remember much, but it freaked me the fuck out. I can't explain it, I can't put it into words, but I basically felt like I was about to be crushed, the room was caving in around me, and I know this sounds stupid but it was like a giant nose was going to crush me and the room. Lon said I got up and started yelling, it's different this time, the room, I'm not going to come back. Then I was back in the room, but I was freaked. I'm feeling better now, but damn that stuff is powerful if you do to much. I think that may have been what happened, it's different than pot where you built a tolerance. With this stuff the more you smoke the deeper and harder you go into the trance. The few bad trips on it I've had have left me with a feeling of there is a reality above this reality, maybe outside of this time, and the trip back to my body is what is so difficult to make, like I don't want to go back, but I have no choice and I am being pulled back, but it's more than that, there is this feeling of being small and insignificate, like an ant about to be squished. I just can't put it into words, just plain freaky, but intriguing at the same time.
I'm going to try one more time, little less this time and completely by myself.