Clueless chump you seem to think I am
Holy fuck am I ever in a storming mood. Last night was just a fucking ridiculous night. I actually did have a good fun night, but there are just a couple stupid things that have me swearing a blue streak when I think about them for more than two seconds.
First of all, there is this guy that I have the hugest crush on. About a week and a half though, when I wasn't around, my friend Holly, kind of fishing on my behalf, asked him if he liked me, and he flat out said he wasn't interested. It hurt a bit, in an "ouch, that stings my ego" kind of way, but no big deal - I'm a big girl, and it's not like I'm in love with the man. I just think he's cute. So, I licked my pride, got over myself, and let it go. I figured we could be friends, and no mention need be made of it, since nothing ever happened anyways. Then, last night at the bar, he comes over to me and says, "Just so you know, I may only be telling you think because I'm drunk, but a while ago I told Holly I wasn't interested in you, but really I just... well, I think Heider [our mutual friend] likes you, so he's my boy, you know? So I can't do anything." To which I replied, first of all, "But what if I don't WANT Heider?", and secondly, "And anyways, Heider is in love with Holly!" which is entirely true. Anyhow, after this out of no where impromptu confession, he went back to treating me perfectly normally. If he likes me, why couldn't he just act on it? And if he is either not interested, or feels he can't act on it, why the HELL did he bring it up? Fuck.
Anyways, then on the drive home, Alex - who I'd brought to the bar with me - threw a little tantrum that I'd apparently been ignoring him at the bar. Then I pretty much exploded on him, informing him politely that I was not ignoring him, and that in any case, I am NOT his girlfriend, and it is not my job to placate him. Then he apologized and tried to convince me once more to have sex with him - to which I said a firm no, first of all because of the girlfriend thing, and secondly because I just really don't want him. When I said no, he asked me, "Would it help if I told you that I don't think things are working out with me and Nika?". WHICH IS FUCKING STUPID TO SAY, and just plain unfair. Even if he were single I wouldn't want more than friendship with him, but I wish he'd treat this like a fucking grown up. God!
Anyways. That is my rant. Um... hopefully I can come up with something happy and nice to write soon, to counteract the bitch that came out in this post.
First of all, there is this guy that I have the hugest crush on. About a week and a half though, when I wasn't around, my friend Holly, kind of fishing on my behalf, asked him if he liked me, and he flat out said he wasn't interested. It hurt a bit, in an "ouch, that stings my ego" kind of way, but no big deal - I'm a big girl, and it's not like I'm in love with the man. I just think he's cute. So, I licked my pride, got over myself, and let it go. I figured we could be friends, and no mention need be made of it, since nothing ever happened anyways. Then, last night at the bar, he comes over to me and says, "Just so you know, I may only be telling you think because I'm drunk, but a while ago I told Holly I wasn't interested in you, but really I just... well, I think Heider [our mutual friend] likes you, so he's my boy, you know? So I can't do anything." To which I replied, first of all, "But what if I don't WANT Heider?", and secondly, "And anyways, Heider is in love with Holly!" which is entirely true. Anyhow, after this out of no where impromptu confession, he went back to treating me perfectly normally. If he likes me, why couldn't he just act on it? And if he is either not interested, or feels he can't act on it, why the HELL did he bring it up? Fuck.
Anyways, then on the drive home, Alex - who I'd brought to the bar with me - threw a little tantrum that I'd apparently been ignoring him at the bar. Then I pretty much exploded on him, informing him politely that I was not ignoring him, and that in any case, I am NOT his girlfriend, and it is not my job to placate him. Then he apologized and tried to convince me once more to have sex with him - to which I said a firm no, first of all because of the girlfriend thing, and secondly because I just really don't want him. When I said no, he asked me, "Would it help if I told you that I don't think things are working out with me and Nika?". WHICH IS FUCKING STUPID TO SAY, and just plain unfair. Even if he were single I wouldn't want more than friendship with him, but I wish he'd treat this like a fucking grown up. God!
Anyways. That is my rant. Um... hopefully I can come up with something happy and nice to write soon, to counteract the bitch that came out in this post.