A Complete 360, Baby,
Oh my god, this is totally ridiculous, I am so firm in most of my beliefs - I am 100% comfortable with my paganism, my bisexuality, my lack of motivation with work and school. I thought I was equally comfortable with everything about me - turns out comfortable does NOT equal sure. This is going to sound crazy, but... I want a baby,
I am definitely not saying now - definitely not even saying within the next five years, It's just that I was always positive that I didn't want a baby, period. Now, one day, definitely. Like, 100%. It's a complete 360 and it's actually weirding me out a lot.
I was at a party tonight at Andrew, Cameron's boyfriend (who he's moving in with!)'s house, and someone brought their baby to the party. It was adorable, the baby (7 months, girl, chubby as all fuck, and with eyes that will dazzle boys in years to come - half chinese half caucasian) just hung out, sat on my lap while I played poker, giggled on the couch... She was at the party, awake and cheerful, until 1am. And it's just... baby's can be cute! And well behaved! And so fucking loving. She sat on my lap and cooed and laughed, and played poker.
So many people are going to laugh and mock my change of heart; so many people will make biological clock jokes. This entire post sounds like a crazy sex starved woman's ravings. All I'm saying is, for the first time in my life, one day - WAY the fuck down the road - I want one.
I am definitely not saying now - definitely not even saying within the next five years, It's just that I was always positive that I didn't want a baby, period. Now, one day, definitely. Like, 100%. It's a complete 360 and it's actually weirding me out a lot.
I was at a party tonight at Andrew, Cameron's boyfriend (who he's moving in with!)'s house, and someone brought their baby to the party. It was adorable, the baby (7 months, girl, chubby as all fuck, and with eyes that will dazzle boys in years to come - half chinese half caucasian) just hung out, sat on my lap while I played poker, giggled on the couch... She was at the party, awake and cheerful, until 1am. And it's just... baby's can be cute! And well behaved! And so fucking loving. She sat on my lap and cooed and laughed, and played poker.
So many people are going to laugh and mock my change of heart; so many people will make biological clock jokes. This entire post sounds like a crazy sex starved woman's ravings. All I'm saying is, for the first time in my life, one day - WAY the fuck down the road - I want one.