old random pics found on camera
forgot about my camera .. and the pics along with it. They were all pretty
don't ask .. i was hyper. we were on our way to san jose, and that is my getaway-dont-have-to-do-a-thing-or-worry-or-stress place. haha .. and i think this was right before colby slapped me. (i can tell because he has that blank *i'm not thinking* look in his face) thanks colby.
soooooooo funny story. First off, sorry Colby. I know you probably don't want the world seeing this pic, but you look sexy. I swear .. you do. a sexy beast. haha uhhm .. so after he got off of work we went to valley fair so i could buy clothes, i drove him there cause he was too tired (got like 3-4 hours of sleep the night before work), and on our way back i was talking and stuff, and he wasn't really talkative so i stopped and just listned to the music .. glanced at him and he was staring off straight ahead .. glanced back a few senconds later (literally a few seconds .. well .. more like 20 seconds, but yeah). and he looked like this. it was too funny.
And this is the finale! And update, to see how much the boys have grown. (except for ryan, he is still the sweet young angle he's always been, can't you tell with that smile? And jon .. still the angry devil biter. And colby .. pretty much out of it, and still owning people. (jon is holding his pocket.)
SO ... here is the orignal pocket holding pic
I'm tired .. finished finals woo. .. yeah i'm not going to write about my life right now. It's 2 .. and i'm tired .. and yeah. good night.
EDIT:: Nevermind, I can't sleep, update time ;P
One thing I actually enjoy about going to San Jose a lot now is the drives there and back. I didn't notice it until the last drive home, but I get a LOT of thinking done! It's an hour of my mind and music alone, that's it. This last time I thought about my career, stress, what would life be like without it? And is it possible to have a stress free life?
I mean .. take Paris Hilton, she's got money to buy problem fixers! haha .. but hell .. she's got to be stressed as hell sometimes, what with all of the media, I'm sure she's got love problems, etc... What would life be like without stress? Most of us think pretty damn nice .. but .. who would we be without stress? We'd probably be a bunch of pussies! haha .. seriously :P. It's like taking a football player who was too lazy to go through all of the ass kicking, throwing up practices and throwing him into a football game .. that guy would get thrown around ilke a rag doll and go home and cry to mommy. I figure .. the more hard times someone goes through, the tougher and wiser they are.
Maybe that's why I have SO much to say and think all of the time. Maybe that's why I have so much advice for some people when they ask, because I've been through a lot. I've been put through life changing situations when I did not want to. And god it sucked during the time, but because of all of those times I've grown. And now I understand how my mom knows so much about love.
Anyway .. about my car ride home. It gave me modivation or something. It was a few days before my bio final, and good god I was scared. But on the way home, I got motivation to go study, and I did it. I skimmed every page of my bio book, and today I took my test .. and I think I actually may have aced it. Yes .. I probably have failed the class, but oh well. =\ .. this semester has been long and hard, and i'm not talking about school. Everything besides school .. lol. So .. I'm giving myself this semester as my "fuck up" semester, as Colby would say haha.
I really don't know where life is going now. I know where I'm going, but my life? No clue. My life could go on with someone, or it could end up going solo. Either way, I'll make it. I used to be scared of being unsure, it still makes me a little uneasy, but I've learned what it feels like to be solo. How it feels to not have another half there with you at all times, and I know I can get through it. So I think in knowing that, it just gives me a little comfort. I used to want my life to go as I had planned it .. going to school, getting married after, having kids, yada yada. Who was I kidding? I've changed my major a billion times, of course I'm going to change what I want in my life.
One helpful thing Colby has taught me is that there is a LOT of time in life. I was in such a rush to settle down, but why? I don't know. But I have a lot of time in my life. And I'm not going to ruin my freedom with little gnomes running around my house hahaha. Maybe it's the way my family is, most (if not all) of my family has settled down by the age of 23-25, most have had kids by 28. So .. that was my time limit. Why? I grew up with it in my head for 20 years haha. But something pulled it out, two things actually. Colby, and freedom. Doing what I want, knowing I can travel, whether it be across the world or down to the abyss. I can travel all I want, I can do anything I want, A-N-Y-T-H-I-N-G. I can discover great things. And I hope I do.
don't ask .. i was hyper. we were on our way to san jose, and that is my getaway-dont-have-to-do-a-thing-or-worry-or-stress place. haha .. and i think this was right before colby slapped me. (i can tell because he has that blank *i'm not thinking* look in his face) thanks colby.
soooooooo funny story. First off, sorry Colby. I know you probably don't want the world seeing this pic, but you look sexy. I swear .. you do. a sexy beast. haha uhhm .. so after he got off of work we went to valley fair so i could buy clothes, i drove him there cause he was too tired (got like 3-4 hours of sleep the night before work), and on our way back i was talking and stuff, and he wasn't really talkative so i stopped and just listned to the music .. glanced at him and he was staring off straight ahead .. glanced back a few senconds later (literally a few seconds .. well .. more like 20 seconds, but yeah). and he looked like this. it was too funny.
And this is the finale! And update, to see how much the boys have grown. (except for ryan, he is still the sweet young angle he's always been, can't you tell with that smile? And jon .. still the angry devil biter. And colby .. pretty much out of it, and still owning people. (jon is holding his pocket.)
SO ... here is the orignal pocket holding pic
I'm tired .. finished finals woo. .. yeah i'm not going to write about my life right now. It's 2 .. and i'm tired .. and yeah. good night.
EDIT:: Nevermind, I can't sleep, update time ;P
One thing I actually enjoy about going to San Jose a lot now is the drives there and back. I didn't notice it until the last drive home, but I get a LOT of thinking done! It's an hour of my mind and music alone, that's it. This last time I thought about my career, stress, what would life be like without it? And is it possible to have a stress free life?
I mean .. take Paris Hilton, she's got money to buy problem fixers! haha .. but hell .. she's got to be stressed as hell sometimes, what with all of the media, I'm sure she's got love problems, etc... What would life be like without stress? Most of us think pretty damn nice .. but .. who would we be without stress? We'd probably be a bunch of pussies! haha .. seriously :P. It's like taking a football player who was too lazy to go through all of the ass kicking, throwing up practices and throwing him into a football game .. that guy would get thrown around ilke a rag doll and go home and cry to mommy. I figure .. the more hard times someone goes through, the tougher and wiser they are.
Maybe that's why I have SO much to say and think all of the time. Maybe that's why I have so much advice for some people when they ask, because I've been through a lot. I've been put through life changing situations when I did not want to. And god it sucked during the time, but because of all of those times I've grown. And now I understand how my mom knows so much about love.
Anyway .. about my car ride home. It gave me modivation or something. It was a few days before my bio final, and good god I was scared. But on the way home, I got motivation to go study, and I did it. I skimmed every page of my bio book, and today I took my test .. and I think I actually may have aced it. Yes .. I probably have failed the class, but oh well. =\ .. this semester has been long and hard, and i'm not talking about school. Everything besides school .. lol. So .. I'm giving myself this semester as my "fuck up" semester, as Colby would say haha.
I really don't know where life is going now. I know where I'm going, but my life? No clue. My life could go on with someone, or it could end up going solo. Either way, I'll make it. I used to be scared of being unsure, it still makes me a little uneasy, but I've learned what it feels like to be solo. How it feels to not have another half there with you at all times, and I know I can get through it. So I think in knowing that, it just gives me a little comfort. I used to want my life to go as I had planned it .. going to school, getting married after, having kids, yada yada. Who was I kidding? I've changed my major a billion times, of course I'm going to change what I want in my life.
One helpful thing Colby has taught me is that there is a LOT of time in life. I was in such a rush to settle down, but why? I don't know. But I have a lot of time in my life. And I'm not going to ruin my freedom with little gnomes running around my house hahaha. Maybe it's the way my family is, most (if not all) of my family has settled down by the age of 23-25, most have had kids by 28. So .. that was my time limit. Why? I grew up with it in my head for 20 years haha. But something pulled it out, two things actually. Colby, and freedom. Doing what I want, knowing I can travel, whether it be across the world or down to the abyss. I can travel all I want, I can do anything I want, A-N-Y-T-H-I-N-G. I can discover great things. And I hope I do.