Up with the White Flag
I surrender. I've finally accepted the honest truth. I've finally accepted that even though I know I'm not ugly, I'm just not attractive. My self esteem has never been so low as it is now. I always thought it would be an advantage for me, being pretty and a good friend. But I've finally come to the conclusion that *MOST* guys don't want a best friend. I have no idea what they want but its basically never been me. Ive never been one to flaunt my body or be forward. I've always saved my affections for someone I KNEW was serious. I thought maybe that would save me from heartbreak...yeah...right. I'm not about to take the next thing that comes along just to have someone. But I've given up on finding someone who can make me truly happy. I'm only happy I have a few days of true happiness to look back on. But I'm done chasing rabbits.